for one more day

last week was nerve-wrecking. i didn't have the time to think, to react and really didn't know what to expect. i waited too long for it to happen and when it's finally here, i panicked. graduation isn't a big deal for me before. i guess, it's different this time because i needed it to happen. anyhoo, the 6 of us went. my mom, aunt, cousin and cousins' daughters. and boy, was it the busiest week ever! i had to entertain them, brought them places where they 'invested' their dollars at. well, i did too. LOL. i haven't managed to get all the pictures, so i'm just gonna post the ones i have.

i just wanted to pixel(ate) their faces but don't know how

we went kangaroo sight-seeing.
soo cute!

we were quite stingy with our (i mean theirs') paid food. i mean, these marsupials charged towards us like some gangsters demanding money. haha. one particular kangaroo bit the paper bag then woosshh..a quarter of the seeds spilled. what a waste. but but, i think my family had fun. i know i did. though that was my 4th visit! i am not going there anymore! unless i'm sponsored.

the next day was my graduation day. we walked our famous parade in the morning and the official ceremony was done at night. it was a very windy and COLD. hence, ignore my ugliness (though i do admit i'm always ugly.haha). not to forget, my hair was EVERYWHERE. showing off generous amount of scalp. yes, scalp. i'm not known for having luscious thick hair. i'm known otherwise. haha.

told you

see the hair

with D, Dr. KJ and Dr. A

love youu!

then, for the rest of the week, we went shopping..

these aren't all mine okay

i had to say that we spent most of our time shopping and less sight-seeing. it wasn't our fault. we didn't ask them to put up sales stickers and what not. pfftt.. on the night prior to our flight back, we went crazy packing our luggage. all of us had excess baggage! the next day, we prepared ourselves with extra moolah to pay for extra kilos. lol. but alhamdulillah, we weren't charged. thanks to the nicest airasia crew. if you often fly airasia from Melbourne, you'd notice this Chinese Muslim woman at the check-in counter. yeah, she's our angel.

i'll update more soon. i'm waiting for the rest of the pictures from my brother.

Yay!

Alhamdulillah

Go shorty!

it's my birthday!
i'm gonna party like..
it's my birthday!!
weee..

okay, i lied.
i'm not THAT excited.
as of 12am,
i was disappointed.
twice.
but that's just me being,
ungrateful.

oh, to be old!

booty

living at home with nothing to do can be blissful if not boring. i've a lot of free time to surf the Internet and to start daydreaming all day. i can get an A+ if there's an exam on that subject! i've stumbled upon a couple of websites that i have come to love. one of it is NastyGal.

i just adore their vintage collections. i feel at home. lol. thank god i haven't had any paychecks (hence, daydreaming). so last night i stole some time to browse the website whilst doing work. then i saw this..

gorgeous aren't they?
*drools*

i don't remember liking animal prints before but since i saw Topshop's leopard blazer, i fell in love with animal printings.

both me and mom agreed that this blazer's awesome. too bad it was expensive. or else i think mom would actually buy me this. haha. i can still dream right? so anyway, those booties are to die for. it's only USD68. *cough* birthday present*cough*

LOL.

images taken from Nastygal & jonathan + olivia

midi mini maxi

oh my god.it's true! Midi is making its comeback. Midi, a mid-calf length skirt that was made famous in the 70s. it's high-waisted and shows off ur slim figure. a friend from this.style.is.mine blogged about it the other day. seems that designers Marc Jacobs and Tory Burch joined in the midi bandwagon. and i have to say their collections are simply gorgeous. orange is definitely the new black.

you can see Marc's if you click on thisstyleismine above and below are Tory's Spring 2011 collections. enjoy!

i absolutely looooove this one. i'd wear it in a heartbeat.
well, provided i have the money to buy it.haha.

images from google search

intriguing

last week i went grocery shopping with my dad. i was walking at the snacks aisle when i saw these. i was shocked to see so much new flavors! have i been gone that long? lol. i had the urge to buy all of them except one. everything else make sense but the one on far right just doesn't. blueberry & hazelnut chips?? err..

but you never know right. it might taste good.em,yeah...

anyway, i tried grilled shrimp and they were pink. yes, pink chips. wasn't that scary to eat though because they tasted good! i like 'em and i think my dad likes 'em too. but mom wasn't too keen. she said, 'tak sedap' (they're not nice). haha. oh well, different people different preferences.

if you ever try the blueberry & hazelnut, pls let me know how it goes.

dare to try?

clean slate

well..not exactly clean.but what i meant is that I've changed to a new domain and so, I can start fresh..again.yay!

now...what do I write?

sugar

“Aunty Naa..” she’d call me. And my heart melts a little.

She says the cleverest things.

belated

raya was a blur memory.nothing much happened.the trip to pahang was daunting.the days were boring.to make it worse, the person didnt call.oh well, move on.anyway, i'll write again soon.when i get all my materials ready.

i'm already gone.

conversation

aku : haa
aku : program tu utk org2 tertentu je
aku : sebelum amik program tu
aku : dia ada test ke-mereng-an
aku : utk uji tahap ngeng
SAJ : ko nie memang perlukan pertolongan...
SAJ : haha.. kucing aku kt sebelah ni tgh mimpi sambil terkujat2
aku : hahahaha
SAJ : same la ngeng mcm ko
aku : kelaka kan tgk kucing tido terkujat2
aku : kucing aku pon ada gitu
SAJ : tau xpe..
aku : kdg2 berbunyi langsung
aku : ntah ape la mimpi tu
SAJ : aku teringat zaman skolah..
SAJ : kadang2 tido kt kelas pastu terkujat sebab mimpi
aku : hahahaha
aku : itu sbb kau tido dlm kelas
SAJ : aku ingat kucing ko mimpi dpt tuan bru.. die happy sgt
aku : hahaha
aku : kan
aku : aku pon rasa ye
aku : kesian dia
aku : mesti berimpian nak larikan diri dari aku dh lama
SAJ : tp duit die x cukup lg...
aku : mana nak cukup duit
aku : asik nak makan minum je
aku : kena la tolak duit saku dia
SAJ : tu ah..
SAJ : kucing aku ni pun kaki lantak
SAJ : tak reti nk benti
SAJ : kalau reti nk tolong wat keje umah xpe gakkk
aku : betol!
aku : kucing aku ni
aku : aku soh tutup air bila dh masak
aku : dia buat bodo je
SAJ : tue ah...
SAJ : kn bagus kalau diorg nie tlg2 lipat bju ke..
SAJ : cuci pinggan
aku : yaAllah
aku : aku setuju
aku : baju2 kitorg dh berlambak2 tak lipat2
SAJ : yg diorg tau tdo atas bjuu bru basuh ade le
aku : itu mmg betol wehhhh
aku : aku balik umah tadi tgk kat baju aku ada kesan2 dia
aku : geram aku nyah!
aku : pastu tau nak lari bila aku marah
SAJ : yg best tu die tau bile kite marah
SAJ : pastu wat muke kesian
SAJ : pastu wat2 tdo
aku : buat mata bulat sket kan
aku : konon2 innocent
SAJ : tau xpe...
SAJ: ari tue aku masak bihun sup.. makan atas lantai jekk
SAJ : datang kucing aku nk manje2..
SAJ : skali kaki die terlebih jangkauan sampai tercelup dlm sup aku..
aku : hahahahahahhahahahahahaha
SAJ : siot betul..
SAJ : dh la mase tue aku lapar tahap somalia
aku : alahaii...abes tu kau buat ape kat dia
aku : kau rendam tak dia dlm baldi
aku : tak pon ikat dia kat pokok
SAJ : xde maknenye...
SAJ : die ttau die salah.. cpt2 blah..
SAJ : aku rase kucing nie sebenarnye paham tau kite cakap..
SAJ : tp wat2 x paham takut kene wat keje
aku : kan
aku : aku pon rasa gitu lah
aku : pulak tu, kucing aku manja dgn mak aku
aku : mesti la mak aku backing dia
aku : balik2 aku yg kena
SAJ : hidup kite nie hopeless sgt ke??? smpi ngan kucing pun nk cri pasal???
aku : menurut firasat aku
aku : kita mmg hopeless
aku : hahahahahahaha
SAJ : aku setuju..
SAJ : weh...
SAJ : walaupun ko x keje..
SAJ : tp aku nie keje esok ye..
aku : hahaha
aku : ye ye
aku : betol
SAJ : kepale pun dh agak weng dhh ni
aku : silalah tido
SAJ : tue ah...
SAJ :nanti kite sambong lah ye perbincangan kite ni..
aku : jap, aku rasa conversation kita ni menarik gila...jadi aku nak minta permission kau utk letak conversation ni kat blog aku
aku : boleh?
SAJ : letak ler...
SAJ : nampak sangat ko nie memang x waras
aku : hahahhahaha
aku : alah
aku : kau pon sama
aku : ok ok..kau pegilah tido
SAJ : jgn bgtau kucing ko.. nanti die mintak royalti
aku : yaaa
aku : naseb kau ingtkan aku
aku : terima kaseh


one of the best conversations i've ever had.thanks SAJ.

Al-Fatihah

everything happened so fast.
2 weeks ago she was all smiley but now she's gone.
my tok meng passed away this morning at 9am.
on friday if im not mistaken, dad told us tok's not feeling well.
so we went to her house.she could no longer sit.no longer talking like before.
but she recognized me when they asked who am i.
she answered, 'syafina' and gave me her lovely smile.
her loveliest smile.
then on saturday dad got a call and was told that she's getting worse.
we went again and upon seeing her, my heart fell.
she was breathing hard.eyes closed.cold feet.
almost lifeless.
we stayed until 12.30am.
after sahur, i went back to sleep and was awaken at about 9am.
she was gone.
we were among the first to come.
recited the yasin.watched tok's closest nieces, nephews, grandchildren shedding tears.
i didnt kiss her for the last time.
dont ask, because i dont know why.
went along to the cemetary, went back home and slept.

Tok Meng, thou shall be missed.

Whatta..

uh-oh,WE'RE IN THE SAME COUNTRY
and still with the SAME PROBLEM

i want out!


aduh..

If

"If all else perished, and he remained, I should still continue to be; and if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger." (Catherine Earnshaw)

the good

today was both good and bad. but i think the good overshadowed the bad.my mom wanted to eat outside for iftar since forever so we finally went out.we had a problem choosing which restaurant to go to.we were walking around jusco tebrau and then i saw the Manhattan Fish Market.so i decided to try.i made a mistake ordering the um, what do they call it..ramadhan promo or something.or was it puasa promo.eh, sorry.cant remember.but it's somewhere in between.lol.anyhoo, below's the picture of my food.and the other one is mom's.she had something something salmon.and she liked it.

i wont suggest anyone to order this.the rice didnt taste so good.
and the fish was okay lah.
don't be fooled with the mushroom soup and
mango pudding that they throw in with the promotion!

if u like salmon then go ahead with this one.
mom said the fish is fresh.
and i think it was worth it.
the price is between rm30-rm40.

i'm coming!

so excited!

*joget joget*


hihi

*updates*

okay, i may not go after all. :(

you're my disco

everyone,

meet my grand aunt, Tok Meng

i used to go to her house when i was growing up.she taught me to read the Qur'an (i didnt khatam tho :p), yelled when i did something naughty, took care of me when parents were away and loves me just the way i am.we went to visit her last on sunday and she there was looking so frail.time does fly.i didnt remember her being this fragile.but she's still a good sport and so cute.her hair was everywhere and when i was tying her hair, she said, 'adik, kuat sikit.takpe tak sakit.rambut pun dh takde'. i just had to laugh. 'betol ni tak sakit, tok?' i asked. 'betol.ha, tarik kuar sikit', she answered.

i am going to miss her alot.hmm..maybe i should take her out sometimes.

love you!

hey

when life gets you down, do you know what you gotta do?


just keep swimming

ouw!

like i wrote on facebook the other day, i was attacked by my cat.random, huh.but it was painful to the core!my left hand looks like a kain batik but with an abstract twist to it.lol.i've posted the pictures on facebook but for Hana's sake, i posted them here again. :D

hope the scars wont last.amin!


kucing simpan dendam

broken hearted girl

H: I'm sorry but i don't have feelings for you anymore

M: ....................................



how would u feel when the person u like (and vice versa)
tells you (on one fine day)
that he/she doesn't like you anymore.
to make it worse,
he/she doesn't realize that..
it's hurting you.



"dh tak rasa ape2, nak buat mcmane"

read all about it

newsflash!

i've activated my facebook.
HAHA.
ok bye.



just because

sweetest downfall

i deactivated my fb account last night.why? because im trying to forget.no...to save myself actually.anyway, im reachable via phone and ym.hope ur having a good weekend.

you're gonna hate me soon

making sense

I’ve been contemplating on things to write actually. It has been a while and I somehow forgot how to do it 'right'. I don’t know what story to tell (though I do have a lot in my mind), I don’t know where to start, I was even thinking of the sequencing. Which story goes first, which goes last. Should I care at all or should I just write anything I want. It's supposed to be a sequence on what was happening and what’s happening in my life. But im getting it all mixed up. Sigh.

But on a different note, why am I stressing over this SMALL matter?I should just write whatever I want right? Regardless of when it happened or where or how. Okay then.. Lets start with my recent holiday..on the next post.

See yous!

Coross

so..here i am again.alive in this boring hometown of mine.i havent been storytelling much, have i? well, dont worry.im beginning to miss blogging (i think). haha. anyhoo, its good to be back with um..a slightly demented heart.it was different this time.coming back seemed to be the hardest thing to do.it was.i had a lump in the throat.i cudnt talk.i had to compose myself one to many times.while walking along swanston, while sipping green tea frappucino (thanks coy mistress - im hooked!), while saying goodbye to a very good friend and while standing on the skybus alone.then as i got to the airport, i cudnt hold it any longer.i was pacing and crying while my fingers were busy typing final sms-es to friends.it was partly difficult because i got hurt AND i was close to having my period.more reasons to be sad kan.thank god no one sat besides me.i looked like an idiot crying like a baby.well..not exactly like a baby but u know.. :p

i began to accept everything, Alhamdulillah.although im not 100% recovered but i'll live.the pain would come and visit some time (and i'd say hey) but thats okay.at least i know im still a human.

it surprises me, how i can easily forgive u.
thanks for hurting me.

fuck it

fuck distance and time

I'm back y'all!

it has always been and always be one of the must things to capture.
KLCC.my second home.

it's true.im back for GOOD.so, embrace it y'all.



are you doing this for me?if you are, thank you

possibility

its heart breaking when things dont work out the way we want it to be kan?

and for that,

i am shattered.

scawed

i was busy doing something and then there was a knock on the door.i peeked outside and saw a police car and panicked when i saw 2 policeman/woman at our door.uh-oh.my heart skipped a beat and i straight away thought of something bad.i was worried this might have something to do with my brother.cikgu opened the door and i heard them said that someone got into our neighbour's house yesterday.so they were asking if we saw anyone suspicious.we said no and off they went.wow.that was scary.both me and cikgu got worried and i immediately headed to the living room checking the windows, the back door and everything else.then it came to our realization that our house isn't safe.at all.windows aren't grilled, gates are easy to open, back door's lock doesn't function well.now im really scared.then cikgu left leaving me all alone in the house.i triple checked everything, making sure they're closed, locked etc.then i was pretending to be busy when i was actually nervous.i watched videos on utube just to get my mind of it and jumped when i heard weird sounds.i am now hiding in my housemate's room, with my phone next to me ready to make an emergency call.lets hope everyone else get home soon!

oh, my mother

things my mom would do for me..

1. lets me out till 2am and laughs about it
(i love you ma!)

2. looking for someone who's going to the UK to buy me a Chanel pearl necklace
(i said Hell no, of course)

3. gives me money to go to New Zealand
(im still considering)

and she wants only one thing for me. to come back home.

should i feel guilty? yes. should i let go of my dreams? yes. i will insyaAllah do what's best for the family. mom is loving enough to her daughter, friends are giving enough with their opinions, housemates are cool enough with my situation and uncle GKF is kind enough to give me support. what more do i need?

enough, now.

it rained

saturday last week, we had a bbq at Flagstaff park.ok, im just gonna let the pictures do the talking.

it was a success tho it rained every now and then.let's do it again!

greek hell

last week, me and a couple of friends went to a well-known restaurant near my house. i've been wanting to go there since last year.why? because of GC. not that im a big fan but he's one of the chefs on my favourite tv show.so, yeah.when a famous chef opens a restaurant, mesti la i nak pegi! lol. so we went and thought of ordering some grilled seafood BUT changed our mind right after we saw a nasty sight. they cook everything on the SAME grill.everything.from beef to pork to lamb to seafood.we were so grossed out. terus cancel nak order salmon or flathead.oh, seafood..

so we had to chose something that were safe to eat like spanakopita, tiganites patates, htapodi xithato which simply mean spinach and cheese (not so) pie, chips and pickled octopus. (so fancy mancy the names kan) and oh, some eggplants.

i just realized that we didnt take all pictures of our "main dishes".but here are some.

pickled octopus

greek donut

olive oil white chocolate mousse with something something.
this...thing, tasted like lotion.
i kid u not.
like seriously.
yuck.

from left: A, L and K

from right: moi, J and MR

thats about it.we didnt take alot of pictures pun.


next!

the other Hana

this girl here, is coming over.soon!


see yousss!

cinema dog

i havent seen S for ages. so last week she invited me to go to the Blak Nite Cinema at a park in the city. it is dedicated to indigenous people in australia and even the forces behind the short movies came from indigenous as well (the directors, script writers, actors). so we decided to meet at about 7pm. it was sort of like a picnic so people brought blankets, food, dogs etc. S was so kind to bring blankets, small pillows, chips, cookies and dips. i on the other hand, only bought some chips (too!). haha. the shows supposed to start at 7:30pm but this was how 7:30pm looked like.

it was more like 5:30pm.so we had to wait until it got dark like this (below)

i enjoyed the movies tho the last one was kind of depressing. i had some trouble understanding parts of the conversation because their accent was strong that i couldnt even guess what they were saying. thank god there was S to explain to me. hehe. thanks S! apart from that, it was great. we both OD'ed on chips. lol. and i thank god the weather wasnt as cold as i've predicted.

there was actually a highlight that night. sitting in front of us were a couple of locals and one of them brought his dog, called Hana/Hanna. the guy (owner) asked me before hand if it's okay with me that Hanna is there. i said okay. curious, i asked S what kind of dog is that and it's a German Sheperd. it's huge and brown and cute and harmless. i told S i couldnt touch dogs tho i secrectly wanted to touch them because dogs are SO cute. Hanna didnt sit still throughout the night and kept pacing and moving back and forth in front of us. i wasnt scared at first but nearing the end of the show, she suddenly stood up and walked in front of me and then turned his face towards me. i thought she was just gonna sniff the blanket or something (so i just acted normal) but she kept moving forward and started to sniff my jeans! i think i yelped (i didnt scream) but it was like a small cry and cupped my mouth while my other hand was on S asking her to save me (via brain signal).hahaha. the owner heard me and immediately sat up and said something to S. i could only hear something like, 'she doesnt bite' or 'she's friendly' (i think) :p S did save me. thank you! i felt guilty because i didnt want to offend him because truth to be told, i like dogs, its just that i cant have any contact with them. then, at the end of the show, the guy brought Hanna closer to us and said something to S (i wasnt concentrating but i KNEW he wants us to pat Hanna.uh-oh). S patted her and i just watched. then the guy turned to ME and said its okay for me to touch her. i was speechless and looked at S with a meaningful eye (haha) and looked back at Hanna and the guy. i dont know how to say no and kinda didnt want to because, like i said before, i didnt want to offend anyone. (a fren told me once that some people do get offended if we show them that we're scared of their pets. i dont know how true it is but i got a feeling if i dont touch that german sheperd i might as well wish i didnt say OK in the first place). am i making sense here? well, anyways, i did pat and touch Hanna. she's a good dog and yes, she doesnt bite. :)

later, i got home and did 'samak'.

remember smudge? he's a shih tzu.