I am

i'll be back insyaAllah in a week or so.
im forcing myself to focus on my writing.
wish me luck! (im in desperate need of it)

bismillahirrahmanirrahim

oh, how i miss her

i was annoyed when my phone rang at 12am last night.mom was calling and i was quite reluctant to pick up the phone because it was well, 12am.plus, i was in my housemate's room and she was sleeping.but i picked it up anyway.it turned out, she was at my grandma's house and wanted me to talk with grandma.wait, what do i call my late grandma's sister or cousin?hmm..nvrmd.i'll just use grandma, regardless.ok so, she is the only grandma (on my dad's side) left.we aren't close but im fond of her.we'd always drop by her house once in a while and before i came here, i paid her a visit.i was touched when she said, 'adik jgn lupakan atuk ye'.tears started to fall but i didnt want to cry in front of her.then i left.i've been missing her since then.so last night when my mom called, she passed the phone to grandma.it was awkward talking on the phone because it was our first time.she sounded sick but can still laugh and make jokes.then, there was this moment where there was silence.i didnt know what to say and i figured she didnt too.after a couple of seconds, she said, 'adik gelak la.atuk nak dgr org gelak.' i did laugh and immediately after that i had to maintain my cool because mom passed the phone to my aunty and uncle and dad.after putting down the phone, i started crying.i regret that i didnt tell her i miss her.i hope by the time i get back, she'll still be there.amin.

i hope my brother picks up the phone

raya and short hair

YES, i cut my hair.NO, i didnt cut it myself.i had to force myself to smile when people asked, "kau potong rambut sendiri ke?" wth.i paid dollars to get it cut and people just assumed i did it myself.the reason for it because "sbb nampak straigth je". 'scuse me, kalo potong sendiri shudnt it be imbalanced?but my hair isnt.its precisely cut by Ross, the uber cool hairdresser.pbfftt! but nevermind, its raya and i forgave them for that.and i happen to loooove it very much,regardless.

cute meletop!

the funnest raya ever

this year's raya was a blast.and like i told my cousins, it's because raya fell on the sunday, not monday.if it was yesterday, it'll be just like last year's.boring.so, on the 1st of syawal, we went to the st.ambrose hall in brunswick for the raya prayer.what i like about it was, i got to skim and scan the crowd (boys).haha.nah...it was fun seeing familiar faces, meeting new people, playing with the cutest babies/kids (you shud consider having babies overseas).they are all gorjes (pink cheeks, white skin, the accent - i envy).then we moved on to open houses.i ate like a monster (a cuter version, of course).but it felt weird,really.i ate some then felt like throwing up. 'what is wrong with me?!its only the 1st day of raya and im already feeling sick?'.saiko.i think my tummy doesnt like the idea of eating (this is a good thing rite?i can keep selim during raya).cool! anyway, when we were on our way to the last house, we started singing in the car.our DJ played KRU's songs from the driver's playlist (which originally came from my playlist) and we sang our hearts out.we were a bunch of crazy chicks singing like there's no tomorrow.hey,its KRU okay! and its raya.forgive us.

well..raya is definitely different this time around and i am very thankful that i get to spend it with my lovely housemates, close frens and of course my brother.we'll be having our own open house on the 3rd of october.jemput datang ok! i'd most probly cook some laksa or..bake a chocolate cake.

i got fat overnight

tebabo!

im sure by now some of you are already at you're kampungs or at you're home preparing for raya; baking cookies, spring cleaning the house, stocking up with kuih rayas, lemangs and what not.exciting, isnt it?tho i dont get to do all that, i am perfectly fine this time around.well, a little bit.just because (hopefully) raya falls on the weekend.if it falls on the monday, it'll just be like any other day with classes etc.i sort of told myself to not be sad but today i caved in.i was listening to my ipod while scanning the dockets when takbir raya came next on the playlist.suddenly my eyes watered and i knew, that im gonna lose it.but since i was at the office, i took a deep breath and yeah, it was all good.haha.but but i know im gonna cry on the phone (again) talking to mom and dad on malam raya.oh well, thats just how it is.okay, enough of sappy-ness.

Have a fantastic Eid Mubarak my dear friends.be extra careful on the road especially for those travelling alone.handle mercun with care (dont lose any of ur fingers! or hands for that matter).

Maaf zahir batin.

take a deep breath and procrastinate!

i've started panic-ing since 2-3 weeks ago but i still havent done anything yet.why am i being so dem lazy? i want to grad this year, of course.but looking at it now, i mite just not.shit.okay, no.i CAN do it.no matter how lazy i am i HAVE to finish it.but i dont know..i guess i need more support.i know one person who can keep me calm and at the same time still procrastinating (you know who you are..i think) haha.

are you a revert? masyaAllah

im an orange

this Raya, im gonna soak up a lot of Vitamin Cs.
because..

not exactly the colour i had in mind when she said Orange.
but wth, im supposed to be thankful for it.
i am (after a disbelief gasp)
hmm..looking at my skin,
i've gone from dark to rather fair.
wont look so bad lah teamed with an orange baju kurung.
kan?

oh well..

i am hot

for the first time in my life, i went for a sauna and jacuzzi.i didnt know how HOT it wud be in the sauna till last night.i actually..suffocated!seriously.it was hot for sure and there were no oxygen (at least i think there were none) and i can hardly breathe.but you know, i wanted to be cool and all.so i stayed and embraced the kinda herb-vicks-air smell (not nice).besides, i cud shed few kilos (i wish!) just by sitting on that white bench.after like 10mins or so, i gave up and went into the jacuzzi.now..thats what i call as relaxing.then i berangan, how amazing it'd be if i have a jacuzzi at home AND a sauna.i'd be skinny like a supermodel.wOw.now thats a wishful thinking.haha.anyways, i'd probably do it again the next time im invited.because i did feel light and fresh after.

tersipu-sipu malew

tiba-tiba

kc: fina
kc: i want u to have a steady bf
kc: get married n all
kc: hve kids n live a happy life

f: thank you.


hmm..

whoa

for the first time in my life..i managed to finish one of my assignments EARLY (early2 pon kol 11:45pm jgk).rasa mcm nak tampar muka sendiri laju2.everyone knows im a last-minute-person.i claimed myself to be more of an 'under pressure' person.its the same cuma sounded a little bit better than the former.haha.anyways,it felt good.but i think its just because the assignment is easier than writing an essay, which i hate most doing.there were a few unfortunate events happening while i was writing.one: a couple next door was screaming 'eff!' at each other outside the house.so i peeked at the window hoping that i cud witness the exciting scene.but too bad, it was dark (duh) but i cud see the shadow of the guy getting into the car (shouting effs) and turned on the engine (still shouting, and the girl too), drove away with his car window down (and STILL screaming effs!) until the car is out of view.that was hilarious.hahaha.then later on, (probably God want to repay my evilness for laughing at the couple) by this 2nd event: my housemate accidently spilled water on the table and of course ON my laptop as well.padan muka!thank god my laptop is A-okay.but lesson learned lah.to not have water near me while doing assignments.

fewwit!

kesengalan

conversation di kala membuat assignment

andrew ooi : you know what
andrew ooi : for your rajinness
andrew ooi : you can eat now
andrew ooi : whatever you eat
andrew ooi : i pay
phatchaa : hahahaha
andrew ooi : eat lobster
andrew ooi : large prawns
andrew ooi : it's okay
phatchaa : boleh
phatchaa : if u betol2 pay for it la
andrew ooi : yaga
andrew ooi : ey so easy to sin ah
andrew ooi : just cos ppl belanja
phatchaa : hahahaha
phatchaa : im not making any sins la
phatchaa : but im not lying that i can eat
andrew ooi : OH
andrew ooi : EWWWWWWWWWWW
andrew ooi : (buat emoticon muntah)

body crocs, diva!

i have never EVER been a fan of crocs.but now i OWN one.i used to rolled my eyes when i see my cousins or aunties wearing it.because it was just plain typical.i cudnt understand why people are so crazy about it.the original crocs is fugly.i mean, look at the design.it makes the foot look extra huge.and whats with the holes?i remembered when it was new in the market, this guy who took us to singapore proudly said, "saya beli ni kat singapore.murah dr kat sini." huh..?i dont even care about that fugly shoe.but today, i forgave myself for buying one.just because its on sale.and the jibbitz..and the accessories too! (kak tasya,before u say anything, i must say that i havent shop for a while :p - minus the ipod) lol.anyway, do u think i shud buy jibbitz for the left side as well?i only bought for one side thinking of wanting to be slightly different. :p

now that i own a pair of crocs, i am officially typical.