Syafina Ramlee

Syafina Ramlee:

• likes to laugh..and i mean really2 laugh..

• at times..am a cheerful person...at times emotional AND at times..bitchy.

• loves Cotton Candy..chocolates..ice creams, baked beans..CREAMER!! ect.hehe

• swears on branded stuff (but not all the time).

• is a shoe fetish...heels, sandals, slip-ons,sneakers...u name it.she has it..hahah

• likes to talk (to them people that i know)

• is learning to be more friendly..independent..

• words are HARSH but she's just giving a reality check..loves her frens and thats the way she look after them and care for them..

• speaks from experience..

• is slow..when doing work.but am trying hard to fix it..

• likes listening to songs..thats why she has an ipod (given by my bro)

• likes hanging out.its her part-time job.

• wants to travel the world and beyond..Japan, NEW YORK!! the big apple *sigh*

• fell in love with dancing since high school..

• always feel that she is not attractive enough..not good enough..etc.she doesnt have the confidence in certain things that she does. pity her.

• can be a jerk sometimes..but then again, she's good at heart.

• loathes her parents..but not all the time.only when bad things happen.

• is addicted to books..story books prefably..

• enjoys good quotes..either from books, movies, celebrities and what not..

• cant live without Internet anymore..!!

• is weird sometimes..she does weird things, eat weird stuff like CREAMER or dip the KFC bun in Pepsi..

• used to get hurt BIG TIME.but not anymore.she's enjoying her life as a single and as a free individual..

• owns some nice 'stuff' but always takes them for granted..

• is amazingly 'healthy'..body wise..(i mean, fats..).hahahhaha.

• treasures her friends..dont think she can live without 'em..(u know who u are, guys!) - xoxo -

• dreams of owning a Mazda..regardless the models..but Mazda3 or Mazda6 would be nice..

• hopes to meet a long time fren again..god knows where she is now..and how has she been..mish her lots!!

• has to get a grip sometimes..she falls apart easily.needs to toughen up a little..be Brave!!

• has a thing over t-shirts..she's trying to collect as many as she can! well..good luck on that one!!

• once in a blue moon, wud cry..for no reason..i think she just has to let 'it' out once in a while..told ya she's WEIRD.

• likes to eat.trust me on this..although she eats in small portions.. dont be fooled! Pitza's her favourite..lasagna, nasi lemak, fried mee hun, chic chop, sausages...and a whole lot more..!! oh ya, kuah kacang!! she likes to just 'ratah' the kuah...

• had thot of running away from home..since primary..(thank god she didnt do it)..shud give a a pat at the back coz despite everything that she has been thru..she manage to control her deepest desire..

• will always keep a name on her heart for as long as she lives..

• is scared to go abroad leaving the loved ones behind (yeah rite..! she hasnt even fill in the forms)..talk crap!

• was onced being called as "Teacher" and am proud of it..!

• 's nicknames varies..adik, nana, ina, B, fina, nor and the infamous BULAT!! harharhar

• is told to keep her hair long..she cant cut her hair short.. *grumpy*

• finds a new found love..GIGS...!!

• is sleepy rite now..and wants to take a break..she'll continue later..

--toodless!!--

+ the third person +

Dream

what's with dreams...? are they something really special that everyone should have..at least one? YES. dream is a powerful tool for human to succeed in life.says who? says me (yeah rite).

someone (Oscar Hammerstein) said:
"If you don't have a dream, how are you going to make a dream come true?"

that is why we have to have dream or dream. so that we can make our own dreams come true.well, ur probably wondering why the hell im talking about dreams all of a sudden.because I HAVE DREAMS.that im not sure will come true.

but like i said..im not sure if they'll come true.because...i dont know.i just dont trust myself to make it happen.i dont have the support and encouragement to do so.or maybe im just making all these excuse. for what? i have no idea..but before i bore u with my heart's content, here's the list of dreams that i have been secretly (well..some of it) keeping from my mother.hahaha

1. to further my studies
2. to dance and i mean really2 dance
3. open a dance studio (god knows when; im not even an amateur)
4. take up photography classes
5. take up make-up classes (rm2500)
6. buy a new sandal (expensive ones)
7. to go to Japan
8. to have a great life
9. lastly, to have a boyfren (hahahha..just joking;boyfren..not for now)

the question is..are any of these gonna become a reality? um..most probably yes.and that would ultimately be the 1st one.whether i WANT it or not..i HAVE to do my Masters regardless where to do it.i HAVE to.plainly because my mother wants me to and i..do think that i want it also.oh..its gonna become a reality if only i FILL IN THE APPLICATION and DO SOMETHING ABOUT THE REFERENCE LETTER!!god..i am lazy fyi.what i need to do is to just go the uitm and see my lecturers and ask them for reference letter.thats all.but..i am LAZY.but then again, i dont have the time to do so.you know why? cuz im working 5 DAYS a week.i dont have any time to spare to go to SA.trust me.and even if i take half day off...that wudnt guarantee that i'll see any of them in campus.they'd probably be anywhere or everywhere.huuuu~

oh ya..about the dancing thingy..i do have PASSION for dancing.its just that i dont have the opportunity to learn more.as some might know, i was in a dance club few years back.i've done shows and stuff.but i stopped in the middle.cant remember why.but i never feel like shutting or throwing it off the window.i WANT to dance.i WANT to be a professional dancer.and i WANT to own a dancing studio.but my gut is whispering "it wont happen.ur mother wont like it".but DUH..its kinda her "fault" that i LOVE to dance.she was a dancer too!!some frens said that, "yes, she was a dancer before.but maybe thats the reason that she doesnt like the idea of u dancing.she had probably experienced something and she doesnt u to go thru it because ur her daughter" bla bla... *sigh* i know there are some truth in it but being a young woman who wants to do the things that she loves..i thot that was mean and cruel and sadistic (exaggerate).

then there are photography and make-up classes.i REALLY REALLY want to be if-not-great-but-good photographer - for myself.i like to take pictures.i just dont have the tool and the talent and the monies to be able to do that.i have to have a GOOD-EXPENSIVE camera, dont i?and i do have to know the basics.but ya..i dont.hahaha.and about that make-up classes.i want to learn to make up so that i can make myself up.i want to be pretty.i want to be able to look utterly beautifool that when i walk everywhere, heads will turn and stare.yes.i do want to feel beautiful not only on the inside but on the outside as well. (^_^) i am very self conscious of myself.i dont think im pretty nor beautiful.or stunning.or even cute.i am not.FINA IS SUCH A PLAIN GIRL. *no wonder no one wants to be around her.or get to knoe her* but im immuned to such thing.i know what its like being just another plain girl.and it hurts so bad that i can even tell how it feels like.therefore, i wud like to take make-up lessons, thank you. (anyone's who generous enuff to give me rm2500?? anyone..?)

the sandal? nah..that can be settled at anytime.hahaha.. (show off)
meanwhile, last year..i NEARLY had the chance to go to Japan.yes..NEARLY. but it didnt happen which saw me broke down and cried endlessly on the floor.JOKING.i was supposed to go with a good friend of mine but ya..she mentioned something about her dad which i also cudnt recall what was that about.in conclusion, we didnt go.i dont have any idea when i'll have the chance to.huhu =(

and the last one which is number 8: to have a great life.
i honestly think that i've achieved this one.because i am HAPPY.i have a JOB.i have NEW FRENS.i still communicate with OLD FRENS.i have a GREAT FAMILY (parents and a brother and beautiful cousinsssss).i just turned 23.and i have a NEW PHONE.i found a new interest; going to GIGS.i found 4-5 other new loves; shops in Bangsar or course!basically, i have a life except on weekends (bored to death).haha..when i 1st got my car..i went out EVERY WEEKEND and it sucked all of my MONIES.yes.i was BROKE in November.really2 broke.but that didnt broke my spirit to move on with my lifestyle.hahaha.i still went for a facial at Lancome Beauty Institute in Bangsar.i still coloured my hair in KLCC.that alone cost me a freaking rm265.u may not think thats a lot but it was for me.not counting the expenses of driving here and there.the toll and FUEL.i dont even dare to count.i cant bear the reality.hahahahaha..

anyway, all in all..im living a great life.althou there are times when i feel like crap but i do enjoy the things that i do now.with not-so-great-friends, i manage to live.this is definitely the time to put myself to test.whether i can be independent and at the same time having the time of my life..pursuing my DREAMS.i do hope that i can achieve all of them.its just the matter of TIME and MONEY and FAITH.if i put my mind to it, i can most definitely succeed.
i leave u with some quotes that read:

"If you can imagine it, you can achieve it. If you can dream it, you can become it."
(William Arthur Ward)

"Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that you, too, can become great"
(Mark Twain)

Think.Action.Achieve.

my NOT-SO-BIG-FAT birthday

29 november was the day to celebrate and the day which saw a young woman turning into an older young woman.. (huh? now im confusing myself.haha..) anyway..my birth-day started with a not-so-good-mood.that was because i was under probation to become a...sshhh... SENIOR QA.i was stressed and even the day before i dont feel like celebrating.i was STRESSED OUT and was waiting to break down.serious.but i got thru the working hours..

Few Colleagues wished.and as for my QA team..a fellow junior QA accidently let out a-what-supposed-to-be-a-secret-plan to me.muahaha..i knew im gonna get a cake (hehe..its a tradition in the office.duh)..so anyway..the Team Leader Assistant, K, made few jokes and was telling me "where got cake for you?he just made it up.there wont be any cake..".and i was laughing and i told him its okay, i dont mind. (^_^) after lunch..at about 2.30pm, i saw one by one got up and went to the pantry.i pretended as if i didnt notice anything when i felt like laughing my heart out!i had to control my desire to smile and giggle and tried to focus at my monitor.

Then K came to me saying that we got a meeting.bring your note pad and a pen.faster.then he asked me to follow him to see a GD about my ad.K was so clueless of what to do and he brought me to Choda's desk.i just had to smile and laugh.knowing that he's buying some time for the rest to set up the cake and candles.then i followed him to the pantry..and...when i came in..Happy Birthday to you..Happy Birthday to you..Happy Birthday to Finaaa..Happy Birthday to youuuu...was sang to me.i was practically blushing althou i knew about it.and the "best" part was i forgot to make a wish..i was too busy blushing + excited + happy that i forgot to pour my heart's desire.well..nevermind that.we ate the cake and i gave some to others and that was it.
but halfway thru the eating and cleaning..i got another birthday song from a colleague's fren.

Later that afternoon, my brother was asking if i want to celebrate with our cousins..that wud be great i said.so i invited Gee, tasha, abg.bulat and abg.nes..boy decided to eat at Marche at the Curve.so we went there 1st because boy was stuck waiting for his fren's sister.since he was quite late.we ordered 1st.we had 2 pitzas, chicken breast, a sausage and drinks.and still boy wasnt there yet.but thank god i have some cash to pay.the total wasnt so bad.i paid and we waited for boy and abg said lets go somewhere else where boy can have his dinner.oh ya, btw i got a t-shirt from both Gee and Tasha.

Then I decided for us to go to Naili's but in the end, we ended up at Uptown's food court.when we were seated..boy took a paper bag he brought and started to take out things one by one.1st, he took out a bday card..then, an ipod earphone (mine's broken)..and....he took out this medium size box and gave it to me..i looked at it and i was FREAKING SURPRISED!! it was a Sony Ericcson phone! i cant believe that i got it so soon.it was from my beautiful lovely mom..! she bought the exact colour that i wanted.WOW..! i was so shock and i cudnt control my excitement. i quickly called her up and said thanks for the new phone.I LOVE YOU THE BEST, MA.

Everyone was like Waa...new phone.hehehhee..well..i didnt ask for it but im loving it..! and lastly, boy took out the cheese cake that he's been telling me about.can u believe that he made the cheese cake himself?my cousins didnt.but i did.i know he's capable of baking cakes.
So we ordered some tea O ice, teh tarik etc..abg bulat and Gee ordered kuey tiao and boy ordered the infamous chicken chop.we chatted, laughed, made fun till like 1am.we had the greatest time spending the time together.me and abg nes had to go back because we have to work the next day.abg bulat had to sent the rest back to their places.

So..that was it. my birthday party celebration. thank god everybody had a great time. i was afraid that some wudnt enjoy it but thankfully they did. i am particularly honoured that Tasha and Gee came all the way from Pahang to KL to celebrate with me. THANK YOU SO MUCH, YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST! me and abg nes went back together and we arrived at Cyberjaya at about 2am.i was exhausted yet still happy and excited (over my new phone of course!)..before i settled down to bed, i gave sms-es to all saying thank yous and stuff.abg bulat said we cousins shud to this more often.YAY!!! i wud definitely LOVE to.

Cant wait for our next meeting..!
Till then..! xoxo