Syafina Ramlee

Syafina Ramlee:

• likes to laugh..and i mean really2 laugh..

• at times..am a cheerful person...at times emotional AND at times..bitchy.

• loves Cotton Candy..chocolates..ice creams, baked beans..CREAMER!! ect.hehe

• swears on branded stuff (but not all the time).

• is a shoe fetish...heels, sandals, slip-ons,sneakers...u name it.she has it..hahah

• likes to talk (to them people that i know)

• is learning to be more friendly..independent..

• words are HARSH but she's just giving a reality check..loves her frens and thats the way she look after them and care for them..

• speaks from experience..

• is slow..when doing work.but am trying hard to fix it..

• likes listening to songs..thats why she has an ipod (given by my bro)

• likes hanging out.its her part-time job.

• wants to travel the world and beyond..Japan, NEW YORK!! the big apple *sigh*

• fell in love with dancing since high school..

• always feel that she is not attractive enough..not good enough..etc.she doesnt have the confidence in certain things that she does. pity her.

• can be a jerk sometimes..but then again, she's good at heart.

• loathes her parents..but not all the time.only when bad things happen.

• is addicted to books..story books prefably..

• enjoys good quotes..either from books, movies, celebrities and what not..

• cant live without Internet anymore..!!

• is weird sometimes..she does weird things, eat weird stuff like CREAMER or dip the KFC bun in Pepsi..

• used to get hurt BIG TIME.but not anymore.she's enjoying her life as a single and as a free individual..

• owns some nice 'stuff' but always takes them for granted..

• is amazingly 'healthy'..body wise..(i mean, fats..).hahahhaha.

• treasures her friends..dont think she can live without 'em..(u know who u are, guys!) - xoxo -

• dreams of owning a Mazda..regardless the models..but Mazda3 or Mazda6 would be nice..

• hopes to meet a long time fren again..god knows where she is now..and how has she been..mish her lots!!

• has to get a grip sometimes..she falls apart easily.needs to toughen up a little..be Brave!!

• has a thing over t-shirts..she's trying to collect as many as she can! well..good luck on that one!!

• once in a blue moon, wud cry..for no reason..i think she just has to let 'it' out once in a while..told ya she's WEIRD.

• likes to eat.trust me on this..although she eats in small portions.. dont be fooled! Pitza's her favourite..lasagna, nasi lemak, fried mee hun, chic chop, sausages...and a whole lot more..!! oh ya, kuah kacang!! she likes to just 'ratah' the kuah...

• had thot of running away from home..since primary..(thank god she didnt do it)..shud give a a pat at the back coz despite everything that she has been thru..she manage to control her deepest desire..

• will always keep a name on her heart for as long as she lives..

• is scared to go abroad leaving the loved ones behind (yeah rite..! she hasnt even fill in the forms)..talk crap!

• was onced being called as "Teacher" and am proud of it..!

• 's nicknames varies..adik, nana, ina, B, fina, nor and the infamous BULAT!! harharhar

• is told to keep her hair long..she cant cut her hair short.. *grumpy*

• finds a new found love..GIGS...!!

• is sleepy rite now..and wants to take a break..she'll continue later..

--toodless!!--

+ the third person +

Dream

what's with dreams...? are they something really special that everyone should have..at least one? YES. dream is a powerful tool for human to succeed in life.says who? says me (yeah rite).

someone (Oscar Hammerstein) said:
"If you don't have a dream, how are you going to make a dream come true?"

that is why we have to have dream or dream. so that we can make our own dreams come true.well, ur probably wondering why the hell im talking about dreams all of a sudden.because I HAVE DREAMS.that im not sure will come true.

but like i said..im not sure if they'll come true.because...i dont know.i just dont trust myself to make it happen.i dont have the support and encouragement to do so.or maybe im just making all these excuse. for what? i have no idea..but before i bore u with my heart's content, here's the list of dreams that i have been secretly (well..some of it) keeping from my mother.hahaha

1. to further my studies
2. to dance and i mean really2 dance
3. open a dance studio (god knows when; im not even an amateur)
4. take up photography classes
5. take up make-up classes (rm2500)
6. buy a new sandal (expensive ones)
7. to go to Japan
8. to have a great life
9. lastly, to have a boyfren (hahahha..just joking;boyfren..not for now)

the question is..are any of these gonna become a reality? um..most probably yes.and that would ultimately be the 1st one.whether i WANT it or not..i HAVE to do my Masters regardless where to do it.i HAVE to.plainly because my mother wants me to and i..do think that i want it also.oh..its gonna become a reality if only i FILL IN THE APPLICATION and DO SOMETHING ABOUT THE REFERENCE LETTER!!god..i am lazy fyi.what i need to do is to just go the uitm and see my lecturers and ask them for reference letter.thats all.but..i am LAZY.but then again, i dont have the time to do so.you know why? cuz im working 5 DAYS a week.i dont have any time to spare to go to SA.trust me.and even if i take half day off...that wudnt guarantee that i'll see any of them in campus.they'd probably be anywhere or everywhere.huuuu~

oh ya..about the dancing thingy..i do have PASSION for dancing.its just that i dont have the opportunity to learn more.as some might know, i was in a dance club few years back.i've done shows and stuff.but i stopped in the middle.cant remember why.but i never feel like shutting or throwing it off the window.i WANT to dance.i WANT to be a professional dancer.and i WANT to own a dancing studio.but my gut is whispering "it wont happen.ur mother wont like it".but DUH..its kinda her "fault" that i LOVE to dance.she was a dancer too!!some frens said that, "yes, she was a dancer before.but maybe thats the reason that she doesnt like the idea of u dancing.she had probably experienced something and she doesnt u to go thru it because ur her daughter" bla bla... *sigh* i know there are some truth in it but being a young woman who wants to do the things that she loves..i thot that was mean and cruel and sadistic (exaggerate).

then there are photography and make-up classes.i REALLY REALLY want to be if-not-great-but-good photographer - for myself.i like to take pictures.i just dont have the tool and the talent and the monies to be able to do that.i have to have a GOOD-EXPENSIVE camera, dont i?and i do have to know the basics.but ya..i dont.hahaha.and about that make-up classes.i want to learn to make up so that i can make myself up.i want to be pretty.i want to be able to look utterly beautifool that when i walk everywhere, heads will turn and stare.yes.i do want to feel beautiful not only on the inside but on the outside as well. (^_^) i am very self conscious of myself.i dont think im pretty nor beautiful.or stunning.or even cute.i am not.FINA IS SUCH A PLAIN GIRL. *no wonder no one wants to be around her.or get to knoe her* but im immuned to such thing.i know what its like being just another plain girl.and it hurts so bad that i can even tell how it feels like.therefore, i wud like to take make-up lessons, thank you. (anyone's who generous enuff to give me rm2500?? anyone..?)

the sandal? nah..that can be settled at anytime.hahaha.. (show off)
meanwhile, last year..i NEARLY had the chance to go to Japan.yes..NEARLY. but it didnt happen which saw me broke down and cried endlessly on the floor.JOKING.i was supposed to go with a good friend of mine but ya..she mentioned something about her dad which i also cudnt recall what was that about.in conclusion, we didnt go.i dont have any idea when i'll have the chance to.huhu =(

and the last one which is number 8: to have a great life.
i honestly think that i've achieved this one.because i am HAPPY.i have a JOB.i have NEW FRENS.i still communicate with OLD FRENS.i have a GREAT FAMILY (parents and a brother and beautiful cousinsssss).i just turned 23.and i have a NEW PHONE.i found a new interest; going to GIGS.i found 4-5 other new loves; shops in Bangsar or course!basically, i have a life except on weekends (bored to death).haha..when i 1st got my car..i went out EVERY WEEKEND and it sucked all of my MONIES.yes.i was BROKE in November.really2 broke.but that didnt broke my spirit to move on with my lifestyle.hahaha.i still went for a facial at Lancome Beauty Institute in Bangsar.i still coloured my hair in KLCC.that alone cost me a freaking rm265.u may not think thats a lot but it was for me.not counting the expenses of driving here and there.the toll and FUEL.i dont even dare to count.i cant bear the reality.hahahahaha..

anyway, all in all..im living a great life.althou there are times when i feel like crap but i do enjoy the things that i do now.with not-so-great-friends, i manage to live.this is definitely the time to put myself to test.whether i can be independent and at the same time having the time of my life..pursuing my DREAMS.i do hope that i can achieve all of them.its just the matter of TIME and MONEY and FAITH.if i put my mind to it, i can most definitely succeed.
i leave u with some quotes that read:

"If you can imagine it, you can achieve it. If you can dream it, you can become it."
(William Arthur Ward)

"Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that you, too, can become great"
(Mark Twain)

Think.Action.Achieve.

my NOT-SO-BIG-FAT birthday

29 november was the day to celebrate and the day which saw a young woman turning into an older young woman.. (huh? now im confusing myself.haha..) anyway..my birth-day started with a not-so-good-mood.that was because i was under probation to become a...sshhh... SENIOR QA.i was stressed and even the day before i dont feel like celebrating.i was STRESSED OUT and was waiting to break down.serious.but i got thru the working hours..

Few Colleagues wished.and as for my QA team..a fellow junior QA accidently let out a-what-supposed-to-be-a-secret-plan to me.muahaha..i knew im gonna get a cake (hehe..its a tradition in the office.duh)..so anyway..the Team Leader Assistant, K, made few jokes and was telling me "where got cake for you?he just made it up.there wont be any cake..".and i was laughing and i told him its okay, i dont mind. (^_^) after lunch..at about 2.30pm, i saw one by one got up and went to the pantry.i pretended as if i didnt notice anything when i felt like laughing my heart out!i had to control my desire to smile and giggle and tried to focus at my monitor.

Then K came to me saying that we got a meeting.bring your note pad and a pen.faster.then he asked me to follow him to see a GD about my ad.K was so clueless of what to do and he brought me to Choda's desk.i just had to smile and laugh.knowing that he's buying some time for the rest to set up the cake and candles.then i followed him to the pantry..and...when i came in..Happy Birthday to you..Happy Birthday to you..Happy Birthday to Finaaa..Happy Birthday to youuuu...was sang to me.i was practically blushing althou i knew about it.and the "best" part was i forgot to make a wish..i was too busy blushing + excited + happy that i forgot to pour my heart's desire.well..nevermind that.we ate the cake and i gave some to others and that was it.
but halfway thru the eating and cleaning..i got another birthday song from a colleague's fren.

Later that afternoon, my brother was asking if i want to celebrate with our cousins..that wud be great i said.so i invited Gee, tasha, abg.bulat and abg.nes..boy decided to eat at Marche at the Curve.so we went there 1st because boy was stuck waiting for his fren's sister.since he was quite late.we ordered 1st.we had 2 pitzas, chicken breast, a sausage and drinks.and still boy wasnt there yet.but thank god i have some cash to pay.the total wasnt so bad.i paid and we waited for boy and abg said lets go somewhere else where boy can have his dinner.oh ya, btw i got a t-shirt from both Gee and Tasha.

Then I decided for us to go to Naili's but in the end, we ended up at Uptown's food court.when we were seated..boy took a paper bag he brought and started to take out things one by one.1st, he took out a bday card..then, an ipod earphone (mine's broken)..and....he took out this medium size box and gave it to me..i looked at it and i was FREAKING SURPRISED!! it was a Sony Ericcson phone! i cant believe that i got it so soon.it was from my beautiful lovely mom..! she bought the exact colour that i wanted.WOW..! i was so shock and i cudnt control my excitement. i quickly called her up and said thanks for the new phone.I LOVE YOU THE BEST, MA.

Everyone was like Waa...new phone.hehehhee..well..i didnt ask for it but im loving it..! and lastly, boy took out the cheese cake that he's been telling me about.can u believe that he made the cheese cake himself?my cousins didnt.but i did.i know he's capable of baking cakes.
So we ordered some tea O ice, teh tarik etc..abg bulat and Gee ordered kuey tiao and boy ordered the infamous chicken chop.we chatted, laughed, made fun till like 1am.we had the greatest time spending the time together.me and abg nes had to go back because we have to work the next day.abg bulat had to sent the rest back to their places.

So..that was it. my birthday party celebration. thank god everybody had a great time. i was afraid that some wudnt enjoy it but thankfully they did. i am particularly honoured that Tasha and Gee came all the way from Pahang to KL to celebrate with me. THANK YOU SO MUCH, YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST! me and abg nes went back together and we arrived at Cyberjaya at about 2am.i was exhausted yet still happy and excited (over my new phone of course!)..before i settled down to bed, i gave sms-es to all saying thank yous and stuff.abg bulat said we cousins shud to this more often.YAY!!! i wud definitely LOVE to.

Cant wait for our next meeting..!
Till then..! xoxo

Moments

it's 1.32 am and i cant sleep.
it's slightly cold but im holding on.
i am sad.
being paranoid is my thing.
currently going thru a difficult phase (exaggerating)
gonna be 23 in 9 days.
missing someone so bad.
missed great excitement from the party (serves me rite)
gonna break down if i dont do something with myself.
gonna get some flowers from a friend.
just went thru convocation (which was great)
dreaming of getting lotsa balloons.
got a new cute fury sleeping partner *wink*
feeling sappy.
i think i like someone.well not someone but few someoneS..haha.
am literally BROKE.
listening to a remix of a song and the creepy wind sound passing thru the sliding door.
havent pay my phone bills.
lalala..

Is It Time Yet?

i keep asking myself that question for 4 years..is it time yet for me to built a relationship? am i ready for yet another roller coaster ride with someone? to get to know each other..then build the trust etc..it seems like a long journey and it gets kinda tiring to it all over again, doesnt it?
but actually, i dont mind. its just that i havent met the "rite" person yet.or the "rite" person hasnt meet me yet. *sigh* i dont know.on the first day of raya, my aunty asked me "boyfren mcmane?"...and i was like "huh?boyfren yg mane satu?" because as far as im concerned i dont have any..! i thot maybe she knows something that i dont know..then, my cousins laughed at me saying "waa..yg mane satu...ade ramai la tu"..hahahaha..
they're great.its been a long time since we have fun and make jokes together.
anyways, back to the topic...
...i do feel great being single. its fun, no headaches, no worries and the best thing is i get to spend my money to myself..not for anyone else (family's exception). but at times, i do feel bored, sad (not sad sad) but sad like "aihh...if only i have a boyfren rite now"..that kind of sad.and when i feel vulnerable, i wanted to have someone to share my problems, my pain and my joy...but ya..i dont have one.guy frens are different, they're there for fun times..for 'lepak-ing', have wacky conversation with..
but honestly, i survived and STILL surviving without having anyone by my side.althou 4 years ago i thot i wudnt be able to 'live' without him.i was like "what am i supposed to do now that im single again?" "can i survive without him?" "can i someday face him without having any feeling of resentment, hatred or revenge or even love? " one and a half year later, i go the answer to all my questions. i CAN and i DID. it was the greatest moment when i realized that i no longer have any feelings for him and that i've managed to MOVE on. i should give myself a pat on the back for being able to go through alot of dissappointment, pain and sadness..YUP..! since then, i do feel that i can take care of myself..with a little bit of difficulty.but difficulties are normal rite? problems taught me to be independent and somehow i become braver over the years..well, i manage to solve them with the help of a lot of poeple. especially the people that i just got to know a few moths now. they're great people..each one of them.and i thank you for all ur help, patience, concern, tips etc..thank you very much.
before i conceal this particular entry, i'd like to answer the question that i've been asking myself for years..
NO, its not the time yet.not now at least. so there you go. my ultimate answer. (^_^)

Selamat Hari Raya

hi...!! *wink*
Selamat Hari Raya..!
well..i thot im gonna have loads of fun for this year's raya but unfortunately it was normal.nothing much..and the worst thing was that im no longer eligible for 'duit raya'...!! huaaaaaaaaaaa....so sad. (-_-) in fact, i was the one who gave angpau to them (my family of course) and to Ain.i dont have any money left.seriously.well ya..i have some in the bank..but thats different.the money in the bank shudnt be touched. *sigh*
but at least, i got to see my other family members althou not all..thank god Omar and Anis were there..there are SO CUTE...!! i feel like pinching their cheeks until red..! (^_^)
so..thats about it i guess..

Page 116

my journey started at page 116. .

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* to be continued

continuation..

(^_^) hahaha..actually, journey sounded sooo wrong. what i meant was my shopping spree started after i read the book until page 116 at Kinokuniya. hehe... yup..! today i shopped again at KLCC. i wanted to buy a jeans from Zara and a long blouse also from Zara..but unfortunately, i cudnt find the one that i wanted.i think different store has different stocks..anyway, we went into Roxy to check out the jeans and we both found it affordable..so, i tried them on and i LOVE it.same with my fren..she was the one who chose the jeans.

after we went left Roxy, we went to Isetan and i showed her the sweater that i had eyed on earlier. it was a cool sweater.when i tried it on, it just fits.after like 3 to 4 thoughts...i finally bought it.

so thats it for this month.i cant shop any more..well, not for this month.haha...i barely got some left for my expenses this month..so, i have to be extra careful with my money.Darn..! i've spent like nearly rm600! serve me right! i overspend.so now i'll have to bare the consecuences..

when i barely have enough money for this month, a friend of mine just sms-ed and asked me if i want to go and watch money with the clique. another Darn! i cant.i'll just have to decline. *sigh* too bad for me lah.huhuhuhu...

nevermind...im waiting for this month's salary and i will definitely shop again..shopping malls...u just wait! hahahaha..sounds threatening, doesnt it? okay, then..im pretty beat up from our outing...gonna iron my kebaya and then go straight to sleep. zzzZZzzZZZZzzz..

Keds

she's pretty,huh? but what's prettier are the shoes she's wearing! it's Keds.

ever since im into mary janes..

Keds is my #1 favourite..(althou kat sini takde)

*sigh*
i checked the website and they do not ship to other countries except the USA.

darn..if they ship to Mesia,i'd be ordering loads of them!

anyway..here are a few of their designs..

Cup-Cakes..!!

arent they the cutest cupcakes..?? (^_^)

korg tgk je laa..hahaha.i ordered these for my family.brought them back home..

they were nice..nak order? u'll have to come to cyberjaya to pick it up la.ngee~

16 cupcakes = rm28

cheaper than the wondermilk's.

Guilty Pleasure

u mite say that im a show off..but im not..i just want to share the things that i bought for the past two weeks..thats all.so..here are the stuff that i bought in Kajang and Midvalley.

this is the last mary jane that i bought before we went back.from Momoe

i bought like 4 t-shirts at FOS.i have NEVER bought more than one or two things from FOS.huhu..so,this is what happened when Bulat / Fina goes to shop.

this vest.i LOVE it.i LOVE it.i LOVE it.

this one over here...i dont even know when im gonna where it.aihh..tu la nafsu.haha

i LOVE this one.this is pretty much the first thing i bought with my salary.


cute rite this one.hehe..i love glitters and i like the material.so, i pejam mate je amik this one.


i fell in love with this bag the moment i lay my eyes on it.i was sceptical to buy it at first but my shopping instinct thot its now or never..!it was on sale so why not,rite?

(^_^)

basically, these are the things that i bought.and im not finished!ahhah..i've listed more things to buy rite.so hopefully, im able to buy them.i think i need a new jeans.well..i dont exactly NEED it, i just WANT it.hahahaha.

anyways, enough about my guilty pleasures.im gonna blog about something else.which are CUPCAKES!!

Wish List

Things that i wish to buy:

1. Zara Jeans

2. Zara Blouse

3. Beanie

4. Specs

5. Zara Mary Janes (another one??)

6. Purple Hooded Sweater

7.

8.

9.

10.

all of those things i listed is gonna cost me A LOT. trust me..so i'll have to make WISE decisions..
but the thing is..i CANT..! so HELP!

Confession Of A Shopaholic Wannabe

haa..FINALLY..

i got to fulfill my ultimate desire last Wednesday..i went SHOPPING!and it was rewarding althou we were in a hurry..i felt good (sugar high)...because i got to buy what i want.it has been a long time since i shop..i cudnt even remember the last time i bought something.so..that was my chance to really2 splurge and lemme tell u that im NOT finished yet!!still have few things to buy.. (^_^)

anyway..i spent about rm300 for everything including food for 'berbuka'..we ate at Little Penang..both me and mila ordered the nasi lemak, a cendol for me and coconut for mila.then us, being 'greedy' ordered a set of pie tie which we DID NOT finish..haih membazir.as we stroll around, i managed to buy a cool vest and a tube blouse (if u call it a blouse..).then we went to Zara to look for a sweater that i was eyeing for a long time...sampai2 sane..the sweater is not there! Darn..! i was devastated.hahahaha.Really. im not joking cuz i wanted that sweater.we were quite long at Zara because we were busy asking and trying out the mary janes which are TO DIE for..(im not exaggerating) trust me.they are the CUTEST things ever!u'd go crazy over them.i was having a dilemma of what to buy..i had 3 things in my mind. a jeans, a long blouse (NICE) and also a mary jane.i so cudnt make up my mind and i ended up buying nothing from Zara.only mila who bought something. huh..

then we went to FOS.as i went in i immediately look for some t-shirts..i've been wanting to buy some since i got the job so that was my chance. (^_^) i browsed thru all the t-shirts and i took 3 to try them out.then i got out of the fitting room...i browsed again and i took like 4 tees..and i questioned myself.. "do i really want to buy FOUR?" "am I CRAZY?" "do i have ENOUGH budget?"..things like that...and lastly, mila succeeded in convincing me to buy all FOUR.which i dont regret.. thats a good thing rite? not feeling any regret after u spent rm110 for FOUR t-shirts?? huu~~

after FOS..we went to Momoe..and i got myself ANOTHER mary janes...*sigh* (now i have like 4 mary janes..hehehe)..and i intend to buy MORE..! MORE! muahahahahaha...i am soo into mary janes..

we were tired like hell..so at about 9 something, we decided to stop.we bought some drinks and we went back..phew~ what a day..

so..when are YOU guys going shopping??? i do hope it wud be soon and i really2 hope that u'd enjoy ur outings..

okay..need some ZzzZZzzZ... Later!!

Great Smile

Someone sms-ed me saying..

"Damn, u got a great smile"

I was like 'wow..thx' and i cant stop smiling coz it keeps playing in my mind. (^_^)
His compliment makes my day everyday. and im gonna keep that for as long as i can.

See..a simple compliment can really make our day. and a simple compliment can boost our confidence..if u take it positively la. if ur like 'yeah rite'..then the magic wont happen. as easy as that.
So, when someone compliments u..look at him or her, smile and say thx! with great pride and confidence.

Hard Knock Life

how hard can life be?..at times..HARD.real hard.but at times..life is easy.when life's hard, you just cant help but to sigh.and when life's easy,you just cant help but to laugh and smile.rite?

actually..i have no idea where im going about life.hhahahahhahaha..

nah...i just want to tell about how hard life can be when ur far from the bustling city and u have no car.well..as some of u know..my hometown is in jb and since im working now, i rarely have the time to go back.so,this week i decided to go back and i did.i took monday off and i went back on saturday.the hard part began when the journey to Pudu started.hahha..
first off, i waited for the bus near Cyberia in order to get to erl in Putrajaya.then, from there, i took the erl to Tasik Selatan and it cost me rm5.30.after i got to Tasik Selatan, i had to take the Star straigth to Pudu.when i arrived in Pudu,those who we call as 'ulat' came to me and ya, i relented.he said the bus wud depart 'now' but i ended up waiting for an HOUR.imagine u were fasting and were tired from the long journey to get to Pudu..then u have to wait some more..

aihhh..that was when i thot,how hard my life was and is.i started thinking..if only i have a car,i wudnt have to take like 4 public transports just to go home.if i have a car, i wudnt have to wait for an hour.or if i have someone who i can 'hitchhike' to jb, i wudnt have felt very tired. *sigh*

but then again,when i think about it more,i shud be grateful rite?at least i know my way around.and im learning to be independent.i cant depend on anyone for ever.i have to be brave,tough and everything thats at par with that.

so..that was why i asked the question "how hard can life be?".it actually depends on the person itself.on how we perceive life. and how we manage our life.

ask urself that question and find the answer.

New Found Life

Hey..!
its been ages since i wrote huh.got pretty busy with my new found life rite now.hehehe..i knoe i shud be broadcasting it to the whole world but i didnt have the chance to.anyway,I GOT A JOB! rite here in Cyberjaya. =) i guess i was too psyched to the extend that i cudnt even spend some time to share.hahaha..but anyways...im learning to love my job which is kinda cool.i work as a QA which is Quality Assurance in a Yellowpages company.but thats not the name of the company.the name has absolutely nothing to do with yellowpages.people wont even guess that we do yellowpages.the name is Studio Innovators International.we do yellowpages for foreign countries like Germany, Canada, London etc.mesia is not included.hahahhaha..
well..im sure some wud wonder hows the job and stuff and im here to tell you exactly how it is.to be honest,the job is totally a new thing for me.i have to learn doing other stuff than teaching.my job description is to do Prepping and also QA-ing.at the Prepping stage,all the QAs will be given one or two batches which contain many ads from different companies.so..when the batches arrive,we have to type out the ads contents.everything that the clients want to put in their ads.then,after all of the ads are prepped,the GDs (graphic designers) will take the ads and create them as per copysheet.after they created the ads..it will come back to us and then we will QA them.when QA-ing, we have to compare the ads with the copysheet to make sure that everything is fine.we have to be particular about the details,address,phone numbers and etc.if there's errors,we have to state them and send it back to the GD who didi the ad.so basically,its like that la..we QA from mondays-wednesdays.prepping will be on thursdays & fridays.
thats about it la.later i'll tell you more about the office and the PEOPLE working in the office.some of them kinda suck.

Rose

White roses..arent they beautiful? they look so pure, clean, inviting and clearly so white!! =) the strange thing is that all the flowers only grow at that side of the plant. the other side has no single rose! today, the third bud sprung..u can see in this picture that the third one is still small..and today it is beautiful and growing flawlessly. the picture below on the other hand, WAS taken from the same one. only in different angle. i mean i decided to take the picture diagonally. with the leaves and the branch.

they're pretty, kan?? i actually thought of spritzing some water to the roses..to create an effect la konon. but cancelled sbb malas nak masuk umah to take the spritz thingy. hahhaa..lazy me. well, i still think that i captured it beautifully and most importantly, its the way that i want to. i mean how to take the pictures. i hope u guys share the same thoughts as i do. about the photo of the roses and the roses themselves.. Enjoice!

Unborn Babies

What the hell are those?? they're eggs..YES. EGGS.. penyu's eggs.. and they're are very Delicious..Tasty..Mmm.. and YES, i eat unborn babies..u may say its cruelty to animal but i like it. u shud have a try and i bet ur gonna love it as much as i do.muahahahaha.. (gelak dgn muka keji).. seriously..they'r nice. Bon Apetite!!

Simply Amazing

Isnt this cool? i didnt realize that it was there the whole time. only when my mom said there's a bird's nest outside, then i realized. looking at the nest..i was and still amaze at how the hell the bird esembled all the 'ingredients' to built a nest. i mean with the thin branches, dead leaves and all. how do all those things stick together? i mean, look at it. its hanging thinly to the branch and yet the nest is safe and doesnt look like its gonna fall easily. god's creations are amazing,huh. well, the bird is quite cute. its yellow and black in color. me and my dad wonder if there's egg inside it. we'r unable to look inside it because the hole is tiny and obviously inside it is dark. cudnt see a thing. anyways, im excited the fact that the bird chose our plant to build its nest. its quite rare,rite? to see such thing like this at someone's house.

ok, ciao. i need some rest.

till then!!

Looks

What is it with looks? its EVERYTHING! to me its everything.

i seldom think and feel that im pretty or cute or sweet. i mite not think like this before. it if werent for the experiences that i went thru in high skool, i'd appreciate myself better. really.

it started when i was in Form 1, i applied for 'pinjaman buku' and i got it. so a bunch of us went to the room where they kept all the text books. inside, there were few boys who'd help to find and collect the text books for us. what happened was, when all my cute and pretty friends got their books, i was the only one who didnt get it. it was because, this short boy, thinking that he's 'cute', asked me to turn around to face him (i did), and he said the meanest thing to me..'eh, tak cantik ah'.. then he turned around and DID not help to collect the books for me. how CRUEL was he? i mean, how cud u say that to my face?? just because im not pretty, it doesnt mean that u cudnt help me to find all the books! if he's THAT cute or handsome, i can understand. but HELLO? ur just a dark short ugly guy who thinks that girls wud be attracted to him. PUHLEEASSE...! GET A LIFE! look in the mirror first.

SEE..?? GUYS are like that. they think they are super macho and charming and handsome (althou they are soo..not) and yet they'd diss girls who are like me.

and there's another story.. my former bestfren, zadfy, cud be said as pretty okay (not ugly not very pretty but okay).. she'd always get the attention from guys no matter where she goes. there's this time when i was walking with her to a shop and there were 2 guys walking opposite of our direction..and their eyes were only fixed at her. they did not look at me at all. then they approach her saying something. i cant remember wat one of them said. but at least, she got the attention rite.and i did not get any. how pathetic was i?? VERY.

see guys..that is why, now, i cudnt see myself as a beautiful or cute or sweet person. i just cudnt. and to add to that, my self-esteem is definitely not improving. i keep thinking, no wonder i dont have a boyfren. its because im not good-looking enuf to guys. they're not attracted to me, let alone tempted to know me. not like my other frens. its easy for them to knoe people, for people to knoe them and certainly easy for them to get boyfrens. and me? i've been single for 3 and a half year. im not saying that life's pretty great for a single like me. in fact. im blessed. at least my heart's not aching, no one's making me sad and i dont have to think of the money to spend for the other half. im just saying how people especially guys (who think that they'r great) can be cruel to girls who arent good-looking to their eyes. including me. pity me,huh..?

well thats my story and thats all for now.

will be posting new ones anytime soon!

have a great day!

muax!!

Stuck

Yes..I am Stuck..to a song!! Since my fren gave it to me, i listen to it everyday. in fact,im listening rite now!! its called...
Cant Wait by Yoo Seung Jun ft. Yuki.
here's the lyric..


When I hear your voice over the line.
All I wanna do is to keep you on my mind.
I only had one thought. How long?
Don't wanna play the fool.
How did we end up like this baby?
Just wanna play it cool.
I knew I'd always promise.

Won't you tell me baby boo what you want what you need maybe,
I'll be the one that you need till I die baby.
Let me tell you about the things that you don't realize,
so let me televize my love so you can fantasize.
Conjuction-Function but look at the situation.
Don't waste time let's have a conversation.
It's kind of sad but that's our only option.
Let's keep it down low till I get there uh

Yuki :
Lian er duo dou zhong la
hua shuo tai duo sheng yin dou ya le
bao zhe dian hua you dian ai kun hai she bu de gua

Yeah,that's how it is ,as I keep on reminess,
you know I keep it real oh yes
we've got to deal with this, but I'm sick of this, bullshit
acting stupid for the Show-biz Gee-whiz
but wait I'll be there, when I'm done with this

Yuki :
Wo zuo tian shui tai wan xiang ni xiang dao san dian ban
zao shang cong cong mang mang wang de wang xing guo de yi tuan luan
hen rong yi bu nai fan
zong xian shi zhong zou de na me man
xiang you ping chang xin tan lian ai you dian nan

Xian zai jiu xiang ma shang jian dao ni jiu xiang ma shang kao zhe ni
bie shuo yi tian jiu lian yi miao dou kuai deng bu ji
ni shuo ni ye ke wang jiang re qing zu yi suo huo jian na kuai di
sui ran kua zhang hai shi gan jue tian mi mi

My heart is always with you even though we're apart baby.
I know you're sad and blue but that can't take us apart.
Get away from the dark baby come and see the light.
Yuki,in my dream I could with in my Mitsubishi.
But times going, going are gone it's gone
like the wind that can't stop, but stop not at the bus stop,
you and my drop top. Yeah put time in lock.That's right.
You and me baby messing around in the parking lot.

Xiang zhu wo
Don't wake me up. Take the time to explain my mind ???
Gen zhu wo
You so fine I wanna make you mine
Zhi xiang yong yuan zai yi qi

Can you be with me?
Live in luxury,and we be making precious history.
I keep your picture by my bed so I can know you're in my head.
Take my hand by your hand,and I will always be your man.
You gotta trust in me like I would trust in you,
Baby close your eyes and my love will see you through.

Yuki :
Zong you ren bu xian fan
zhao ni you guo lai da shan
mei ci dou hui rang wo te bie xiang ni jue de hao gu dan
yao yuan de ju li jiu you bu an duo zai xin li zhuan
jin ye yue liang wan wan xin qing you dian lan

Xian zai jiu xiang ma shang jian dao ni jiu xiang ma shang bao zhe ni
bie shuo yi tian jiu lian yi miao dou kuai deng bu ji
deng dai dui ai lai shuo xiang ku xi
que yong you shen qi de mo li ta
hao rang jian mian zai tian ye dou bu hui mi

If you keep this in your mind, we will make it through this time.
You will find, it's a sign, it's written in my rhyme.
Even though we are apart, you are always in my heart.
Honey stay with me forever and through any thing endeavor.
Can we make it through this phase,
I will see you through this maze.
If you put your faith in me,happy ending it will be.
That's a promise Yuki,have a little patience,
and in time, you'll see.

I Heart You

isnt this picture sweet?

Words

There's just so many things i'd like to tell you. so many things to ask, things to share, things to laugh about. but u're not here. or..maybe u're here without me knowing u're here. it happens so fast rite? back then i just knew u by the name 'papa boy' and then it became 'wan' and later..'B'. just 'B'. for a while, i felt alive and im utterly happy. but good things have to sometimes end rite? i knew that but it never crosses my mind that it'd be so soon. not only that, im left without any news or explanations. yes, we are..or were only frens but i think im entitled to know something. anything. a simple explanation would do. im not asking too much, am i? make me understand so that i wont be wondering what actually happened to you.

When i heard that u were back the 1st time, i got extremely excited and i was waiting for ur call. but..it never came. let alone a text msg. i got mad (for no reason..wait. for a reason) and speechless when i saw that box of chocolates. i never got to eat the SWISS choc by the way. i dont think i can swallow it thou. back to the story.. i gave u an sms just to satisfy my curiosity. it was delivered but i didnt get any reply. WHY b? why was it so hard for u to reply? or to call? i thot u said im important to u. guess u proved urself wrong,huh. and oh, try be a little bit honest next time ok? it was um..how to say it..very UNPLEASANT to find out about ur FUTURE GIRLFREN from someone else. i do think u shud be the one telling me that.

So..i've been thinking. ALOT. remember the umm..kinda egg thingy that you gave me? im gonna give it back to you. i cudnt keep it for u any longer. it means nothing anymore. never did. i cudnt wait for u to come back. bcoz even when u were here, u didnt bother to call me up. that stinks. i hope one day, ur heart'll open and u'll explain everything to me. and just so u know, im not mad anymore. i am now officially free. free to do anything and that includes giving back ur freaking egg!

So there..! now im left with no words. i dont have anything to say to u no more.

but thx for everything. our frenship was good while it lasted. take good care.

*only God knows how much i want to see u for the last time.

Memories

i was browsing thru pictures and my eyes are fixed to this one. and i thot of paste-ing this particular picture. i dont know..all of us look happy (althou it was our last day seeing each other).haha..but nevertheless, im proud to say that we are close and we always do things together which were great.i miss them and im looking forward to see them again during our convo.

I'm Baaccckkkkk!!!

hey..
its been days since i wrote my last post.
sorry..my mom was out of town and she wanted to use my laptop.
maka..dgn berat hatinya terpaksa la bagi pinjam.huhu..
but its ok now..!hahahahha.. i go back my lappy and im happy!! (hey,it rhymes!!) =p
and for farrhana..
i DID NOT break my legs..im still in one piece.
patah kaki is just a phrase / words that replace the word BORING.
okay hana?? get that? i repeat...BORING. hahahahhahaha
for a while i thot u understood but u obviously did not.
hahahahahaha..
did i tell u, u made my day? u did and still do..
oh,btw..i told yan bout it and we were laughing like hell. =D
jgn marah hana..Lov u..
muax!!

Bunga Raya dan Abee

Bunga Raya dan Abee

This was an accident cuz i actually wanted to capture the Bunga Raya only. the camera turned out to focused on Abee. but its cool rite. the picture i mean. i really like it.

do comment on the picture.

thx.

FCUK

No matter how many times i edit the photos and the captions..

they're still horrible like that!! ugh..! im pissed off!!

fine..i'll just let it be,then.

im an AMATEUR (or is it amature?) hahaha

watever.

Family (LoVe them to death)

My lovely parents

My 'darling' brother

Bestest cousins















Bulat & Abg Bulat

Nadzeha & Abg Nes

This is Ain Batrisyia (hope i got that rite)

Ain's brother, Adib Basyaar

My mom, Kak Marina, Angah & Ain

i have so many pictures of my family.

but i'll post the rest of the photos later ok.

"No lah"

haha..
she's not mad la..
i thot she was mad..
thank god.. :D
neway, hari ni tak dok umah..
i had to drive around jb to send my mom and dad..
penat giler..
then after i got back,i have to kemas the cats' place plak..
*phew*
ok,hafta go..
later..

Guilt

i slept late last nite..
at about 3.40 am.
and i even woke up late this morning.
11.40 am (thats when mom came home)
i think she's mad.
REALLY REALLY MAD.
and i feel guilty.
so,i washed the dishes (which i seldom do),
i tidy (whats the past-tense for tidy aa?) up the living room,
buat2 kemas my room..
masak air (i made tea)..
hm..whats left is the laundry. =)
just hope that she wont scold me later.
(spare me with all the nags,pleasee..) huhu..
amin..

Miao

i have a new cat. the cat shop owner gave her for free.lucky us..my mom said "sian dia..bila dah tak nak baru la nak bagi kat org". but she's beautiful anyway..at first mmg garang..she bite my dad hard..when i say hard,it means HARD. the wound was deep.and she didnt come out from the cage for almost a week! afraid of people i guess. but when i went home i was able to get her out.i'm good..i'm good.. hahahhahahha =p but now she's just fine.and the best part is that she's not in the cage anymore.she sleeps in the house! sian kucins yg lain.they have to sleep outside but this new cat got to sleep inside plak.tak aci!! well..life is cruel and unfair..

but we love her.

Hmm..

here i am..sitting in front of the tv with my laptop on my lap. trying hard to think of things to write..mosquitoes are everywhere and i obviously cant stand them.my mom's at the hall for the rehearsal.my dad just woke up from a nap.he has a fever.sian dia..neway..this evening i freed a stray cat from the cage.at first the cat didnt feel like going out but seconds later he/she (i'd like to think that the cat's a he) went out.the cat didnt make any miaos (to thank me) or watever.i guess he's just minding his own business..
then we went our separate ways..and looking at that moment..i thot of a poem.not like real poem but kindof poem.but i didnt manage to finish it.i've always known that im not a poetry person and that i cant create one..but i tried..
here goes..

our path crosses..

he didnt turn back..

didnt even flinched..

as if saying..

this is the choice that i've made..

and there's no turning back..

ever..

hahahaha..that is one funny, ridiculous, horrible thing i've ever made!! =D at least i tried rite? but i can tell you whose poems i really like to read and i often ponder upon her poems..its Mashy's..she the greatest poet i tell you.not the greatest in the world but great enuff to make me ask for more..!hahahaha..i just love to read her poems..i do.i even posted her poems once in my frenster.feels like sharing them with you people.

Pre-Grad Dinner 5 April 2007

Im sorry..i just have to post EVERYthing today..hahahahha!! biasela..org tgh gila blogging..i guess i just like to tell and share stories with poeple.

anyway..recently on 5th of April we went for our pre-grad dinner at GrandBlueWave Hotel.. =p our theme was 'Funky retro'.

apalaga..dress up la kitorg.some people really really dresses up for the dinner and we were busy awe-ing other's dress set up.
as for me..i was simple.white-collared shirt,black and white skirt,white
open-toe shoes,white earrings and a dark-silver headband.
i was cute i think..hahahhahahaha =p
the food was nice..
our little 'show' (dance routine) were everywhere!!
pictures were taken..
new memories were made and kept..
i'll definitely remember the memories we shared during the dinner.
here goes some of the pictures..

enjoice!!

i edited this picture to look as if it was
taken a long time ago..
yela..kate retro..


















the ones who arrived early at the hotel.

we were trying to look cool and funky.

usher,the PM of the dinner

lia and me

the dinner committee (excluding me)

Dinner at Naili's

As this semester is gonna be our last days together..we decided to spend more time doing things together..such as the time when we went to Sunway Lagoon. had our lunch at McD. taking pictures and stuff. our last outing was at Naili's. tasya came up with the idea to have dinner together. not all of us were there but its enough to have good laughs and sharing stories and taking more pictures. the ones who came are me,bob,tasya,effa,mok,nazrie,lia,iedot,Mcda,shela and ayeen. nana,gjah,alin,suya,didie,asmah,fifa and joy didnt came.i dont know what happened to them. asmah and fifa cudnt come because its far for asmah and fifa was sick.
nevertheless,we enjoyed our dinner and the best time was when we all laughed like crazy to the guy who was singing.u shud go there and listen to his singing..it was totally out of this world!!hahahhahahhaha...!! we were practically laughing like a bunch of hyenas..! people mite think that we were the ones who are crazy. but it was hilarious..seriously..seriously..seriously..
anyways..i added some photos of us.
later k.

















this is my food..its umm..kuey tiao ginger with
umm..chicken.althou it mite look yummy..
i didnt quite like the taste of ginger..

i asked lia and bob to pose while holding the umm..

parsley maybe..hahaha..wth.

they look cute anyway..

they are mcda,mok,shela,iedot,ayeen and tasya's

hand.

these are iedot,ayeen,tasya and effa.

a good bunch.

this is me with bob..

me,mok and nazrie..btw,mok's real name is

mashitah.sometimes we call her mashy or mok.

love this pic!!

i L.O.V.E everyone in all of these pictures..

miss them badly.. ='(