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There's just so many things i'd like to tell you. so many things to ask, things to share, things to laugh about. but u're not here. or..maybe u're here without me knowing u're here. it happens so fast rite? back then i just knew u by the name 'papa boy' and then it became 'wan' and later..'B'. just 'B'. for a while, i felt alive and im utterly happy. but good things have to sometimes end rite? i knew that but it never crosses my mind that it'd be so soon. not only that, im left without any news or explanations. yes, we are..or were only frens but i think im entitled to know something. anything. a simple explanation would do. im not asking too much, am i? make me understand so that i wont be wondering what actually happened to you.

When i heard that u were back the 1st time, i got extremely excited and i was waiting for ur call. but..it never came. let alone a text msg. i got mad (for no reason..wait. for a reason) and speechless when i saw that box of chocolates. i never got to eat the SWISS choc by the way. i dont think i can swallow it thou. back to the story.. i gave u an sms just to satisfy my curiosity. it was delivered but i didnt get any reply. WHY b? why was it so hard for u to reply? or to call? i thot u said im important to u. guess u proved urself wrong,huh. and oh, try be a little bit honest next time ok? it was um..how to say it..very UNPLEASANT to find out about ur FUTURE GIRLFREN from someone else. i do think u shud be the one telling me that.

So..i've been thinking. ALOT. remember the umm..kinda egg thingy that you gave me? im gonna give it back to you. i cudnt keep it for u any longer. it means nothing anymore. never did. i cudnt wait for u to come back. bcoz even when u were here, u didnt bother to call me up. that stinks. i hope one day, ur heart'll open and u'll explain everything to me. and just so u know, im not mad anymore. i am now officially free. free to do anything and that includes giving back ur freaking egg!

So there..! now im left with no words. i dont have anything to say to u no more.

but thx for everything. our frenship was good while it lasted. take good care.

*only God knows how much i want to see u for the last time.