Looks

What is it with looks? its EVERYTHING! to me its everything.

i seldom think and feel that im pretty or cute or sweet. i mite not think like this before. it if werent for the experiences that i went thru in high skool, i'd appreciate myself better. really.

it started when i was in Form 1, i applied for 'pinjaman buku' and i got it. so a bunch of us went to the room where they kept all the text books. inside, there were few boys who'd help to find and collect the text books for us. what happened was, when all my cute and pretty friends got their books, i was the only one who didnt get it. it was because, this short boy, thinking that he's 'cute', asked me to turn around to face him (i did), and he said the meanest thing to me..'eh, tak cantik ah'.. then he turned around and DID not help to collect the books for me. how CRUEL was he? i mean, how cud u say that to my face?? just because im not pretty, it doesnt mean that u cudnt help me to find all the books! if he's THAT cute or handsome, i can understand. but HELLO? ur just a dark short ugly guy who thinks that girls wud be attracted to him. PUHLEEASSE...! GET A LIFE! look in the mirror first.

SEE..?? GUYS are like that. they think they are super macho and charming and handsome (althou they are soo..not) and yet they'd diss girls who are like me.

and there's another story.. my former bestfren, zadfy, cud be said as pretty okay (not ugly not very pretty but okay).. she'd always get the attention from guys no matter where she goes. there's this time when i was walking with her to a shop and there were 2 guys walking opposite of our direction..and their eyes were only fixed at her. they did not look at me at all. then they approach her saying something. i cant remember wat one of them said. but at least, she got the attention rite.and i did not get any. how pathetic was i?? VERY.

see guys..that is why, now, i cudnt see myself as a beautiful or cute or sweet person. i just cudnt. and to add to that, my self-esteem is definitely not improving. i keep thinking, no wonder i dont have a boyfren. its because im not good-looking enuf to guys. they're not attracted to me, let alone tempted to know me. not like my other frens. its easy for them to knoe people, for people to knoe them and certainly easy for them to get boyfrens. and me? i've been single for 3 and a half year. im not saying that life's pretty great for a single like me. in fact. im blessed. at least my heart's not aching, no one's making me sad and i dont have to think of the money to spend for the other half. im just saying how people especially guys (who think that they'r great) can be cruel to girls who arent good-looking to their eyes. including me. pity me,huh..?

well thats my story and thats all for now.

will be posting new ones anytime soon!

have a great day!

muax!!

Stuck

Yes..I am Stuck..to a song!! Since my fren gave it to me, i listen to it everyday. in fact,im listening rite now!! its called...
Cant Wait by Yoo Seung Jun ft. Yuki.
here's the lyric..


When I hear your voice over the line.
All I wanna do is to keep you on my mind.
I only had one thought. How long?
Don't wanna play the fool.
How did we end up like this baby?
Just wanna play it cool.
I knew I'd always promise.

Won't you tell me baby boo what you want what you need maybe,
I'll be the one that you need till I die baby.
Let me tell you about the things that you don't realize,
so let me televize my love so you can fantasize.
Conjuction-Function but look at the situation.
Don't waste time let's have a conversation.
It's kind of sad but that's our only option.
Let's keep it down low till I get there uh

Yuki :
Lian er duo dou zhong la
hua shuo tai duo sheng yin dou ya le
bao zhe dian hua you dian ai kun hai she bu de gua

Yeah,that's how it is ,as I keep on reminess,
you know I keep it real oh yes
we've got to deal with this, but I'm sick of this, bullshit
acting stupid for the Show-biz Gee-whiz
but wait I'll be there, when I'm done with this

Yuki :
Wo zuo tian shui tai wan xiang ni xiang dao san dian ban
zao shang cong cong mang mang wang de wang xing guo de yi tuan luan
hen rong yi bu nai fan
zong xian shi zhong zou de na me man
xiang you ping chang xin tan lian ai you dian nan

Xian zai jiu xiang ma shang jian dao ni jiu xiang ma shang kao zhe ni
bie shuo yi tian jiu lian yi miao dou kuai deng bu ji
ni shuo ni ye ke wang jiang re qing zu yi suo huo jian na kuai di
sui ran kua zhang hai shi gan jue tian mi mi

My heart is always with you even though we're apart baby.
I know you're sad and blue but that can't take us apart.
Get away from the dark baby come and see the light.
Yuki,in my dream I could with in my Mitsubishi.
But times going, going are gone it's gone
like the wind that can't stop, but stop not at the bus stop,
you and my drop top. Yeah put time in lock.That's right.
You and me baby messing around in the parking lot.

Xiang zhu wo
Don't wake me up. Take the time to explain my mind ???
Gen zhu wo
You so fine I wanna make you mine
Zhi xiang yong yuan zai yi qi

Can you be with me?
Live in luxury,and we be making precious history.
I keep your picture by my bed so I can know you're in my head.
Take my hand by your hand,and I will always be your man.
You gotta trust in me like I would trust in you,
Baby close your eyes and my love will see you through.

Yuki :
Zong you ren bu xian fan
zhao ni you guo lai da shan
mei ci dou hui rang wo te bie xiang ni jue de hao gu dan
yao yuan de ju li jiu you bu an duo zai xin li zhuan
jin ye yue liang wan wan xin qing you dian lan

Xian zai jiu xiang ma shang jian dao ni jiu xiang ma shang bao zhe ni
bie shuo yi tian jiu lian yi miao dou kuai deng bu ji
deng dai dui ai lai shuo xiang ku xi
que yong you shen qi de mo li ta
hao rang jian mian zai tian ye dou bu hui mi

If you keep this in your mind, we will make it through this time.
You will find, it's a sign, it's written in my rhyme.
Even though we are apart, you are always in my heart.
Honey stay with me forever and through any thing endeavor.
Can we make it through this phase,
I will see you through this maze.
If you put your faith in me,happy ending it will be.
That's a promise Yuki,have a little patience,
and in time, you'll see.

I Heart You

isnt this picture sweet?

Words

There's just so many things i'd like to tell you. so many things to ask, things to share, things to laugh about. but u're not here. or..maybe u're here without me knowing u're here. it happens so fast rite? back then i just knew u by the name 'papa boy' and then it became 'wan' and later..'B'. just 'B'. for a while, i felt alive and im utterly happy. but good things have to sometimes end rite? i knew that but it never crosses my mind that it'd be so soon. not only that, im left without any news or explanations. yes, we are..or were only frens but i think im entitled to know something. anything. a simple explanation would do. im not asking too much, am i? make me understand so that i wont be wondering what actually happened to you.

When i heard that u were back the 1st time, i got extremely excited and i was waiting for ur call. but..it never came. let alone a text msg. i got mad (for no reason..wait. for a reason) and speechless when i saw that box of chocolates. i never got to eat the SWISS choc by the way. i dont think i can swallow it thou. back to the story.. i gave u an sms just to satisfy my curiosity. it was delivered but i didnt get any reply. WHY b? why was it so hard for u to reply? or to call? i thot u said im important to u. guess u proved urself wrong,huh. and oh, try be a little bit honest next time ok? it was um..how to say it..very UNPLEASANT to find out about ur FUTURE GIRLFREN from someone else. i do think u shud be the one telling me that.

So..i've been thinking. ALOT. remember the umm..kinda egg thingy that you gave me? im gonna give it back to you. i cudnt keep it for u any longer. it means nothing anymore. never did. i cudnt wait for u to come back. bcoz even when u were here, u didnt bother to call me up. that stinks. i hope one day, ur heart'll open and u'll explain everything to me. and just so u know, im not mad anymore. i am now officially free. free to do anything and that includes giving back ur freaking egg!

So there..! now im left with no words. i dont have anything to say to u no more.

but thx for everything. our frenship was good while it lasted. take good care.

*only God knows how much i want to see u for the last time.

Memories

i was browsing thru pictures and my eyes are fixed to this one. and i thot of paste-ing this particular picture. i dont know..all of us look happy (althou it was our last day seeing each other).haha..but nevertheless, im proud to say that we are close and we always do things together which were great.i miss them and im looking forward to see them again during our convo.

I'm Baaccckkkkk!!!

hey..
its been days since i wrote my last post.
sorry..my mom was out of town and she wanted to use my laptop.
maka..dgn berat hatinya terpaksa la bagi pinjam.huhu..
but its ok now..!hahahahha.. i go back my lappy and im happy!! (hey,it rhymes!!) =p
and for farrhana..
i DID NOT break my legs..im still in one piece.
patah kaki is just a phrase / words that replace the word BORING.
okay hana?? get that? i repeat...BORING. hahahahhahaha
for a while i thot u understood but u obviously did not.
hahahahahaha..
did i tell u, u made my day? u did and still do..
oh,btw..i told yan bout it and we were laughing like hell. =D
jgn marah hana..Lov u..
muax!!

Bunga Raya dan Abee

Bunga Raya dan Abee

This was an accident cuz i actually wanted to capture the Bunga Raya only. the camera turned out to focused on Abee. but its cool rite. the picture i mean. i really like it.

do comment on the picture.

thx.

FCUK

No matter how many times i edit the photos and the captions..

they're still horrible like that!! ugh..! im pissed off!!

fine..i'll just let it be,then.

im an AMATEUR (or is it amature?) hahaha

watever.

Family (LoVe them to death)

My lovely parents

My 'darling' brother

Bestest cousins















Bulat & Abg Bulat

Nadzeha & Abg Nes

This is Ain Batrisyia (hope i got that rite)

Ain's brother, Adib Basyaar

My mom, Kak Marina, Angah & Ain

i have so many pictures of my family.

but i'll post the rest of the photos later ok.

"No lah"

haha..
she's not mad la..
i thot she was mad..
thank god.. :D
neway, hari ni tak dok umah..
i had to drive around jb to send my mom and dad..
penat giler..
then after i got back,i have to kemas the cats' place plak..
*phew*
ok,hafta go..
later..

Guilt

i slept late last nite..
at about 3.40 am.
and i even woke up late this morning.
11.40 am (thats when mom came home)
i think she's mad.
REALLY REALLY MAD.
and i feel guilty.
so,i washed the dishes (which i seldom do),
i tidy (whats the past-tense for tidy aa?) up the living room,
buat2 kemas my room..
masak air (i made tea)..
hm..whats left is the laundry. =)
just hope that she wont scold me later.
(spare me with all the nags,pleasee..) huhu..
amin..

Miao

i have a new cat. the cat shop owner gave her for free.lucky us..my mom said "sian dia..bila dah tak nak baru la nak bagi kat org". but she's beautiful anyway..at first mmg garang..she bite my dad hard..when i say hard,it means HARD. the wound was deep.and she didnt come out from the cage for almost a week! afraid of people i guess. but when i went home i was able to get her out.i'm good..i'm good.. hahahhahahha =p but now she's just fine.and the best part is that she's not in the cage anymore.she sleeps in the house! sian kucins yg lain.they have to sleep outside but this new cat got to sleep inside plak.tak aci!! well..life is cruel and unfair..

but we love her.

Hmm..

here i am..sitting in front of the tv with my laptop on my lap. trying hard to think of things to write..mosquitoes are everywhere and i obviously cant stand them.my mom's at the hall for the rehearsal.my dad just woke up from a nap.he has a fever.sian dia..neway..this evening i freed a stray cat from the cage.at first the cat didnt feel like going out but seconds later he/she (i'd like to think that the cat's a he) went out.the cat didnt make any miaos (to thank me) or watever.i guess he's just minding his own business..
then we went our separate ways..and looking at that moment..i thot of a poem.not like real poem but kindof poem.but i didnt manage to finish it.i've always known that im not a poetry person and that i cant create one..but i tried..
here goes..

our path crosses..

he didnt turn back..

didnt even flinched..

as if saying..

this is the choice that i've made..

and there's no turning back..

ever..

hahahaha..that is one funny, ridiculous, horrible thing i've ever made!! =D at least i tried rite? but i can tell you whose poems i really like to read and i often ponder upon her poems..its Mashy's..she the greatest poet i tell you.not the greatest in the world but great enuff to make me ask for more..!hahahaha..i just love to read her poems..i do.i even posted her poems once in my frenster.feels like sharing them with you people.

Pre-Grad Dinner 5 April 2007

Im sorry..i just have to post EVERYthing today..hahahahha!! biasela..org tgh gila blogging..i guess i just like to tell and share stories with poeple.

anyway..recently on 5th of April we went for our pre-grad dinner at GrandBlueWave Hotel.. =p our theme was 'Funky retro'.

apalaga..dress up la kitorg.some people really really dresses up for the dinner and we were busy awe-ing other's dress set up.
as for me..i was simple.white-collared shirt,black and white skirt,white
open-toe shoes,white earrings and a dark-silver headband.
i was cute i think..hahahhahahaha =p
the food was nice..
our little 'show' (dance routine) were everywhere!!
pictures were taken..
new memories were made and kept..
i'll definitely remember the memories we shared during the dinner.
here goes some of the pictures..

enjoice!!

i edited this picture to look as if it was
taken a long time ago..
yela..kate retro..


















the ones who arrived early at the hotel.

we were trying to look cool and funky.

usher,the PM of the dinner

lia and me

the dinner committee (excluding me)

Dinner at Naili's

As this semester is gonna be our last days together..we decided to spend more time doing things together..such as the time when we went to Sunway Lagoon. had our lunch at McD. taking pictures and stuff. our last outing was at Naili's. tasya came up with the idea to have dinner together. not all of us were there but its enough to have good laughs and sharing stories and taking more pictures. the ones who came are me,bob,tasya,effa,mok,nazrie,lia,iedot,Mcda,shela and ayeen. nana,gjah,alin,suya,didie,asmah,fifa and joy didnt came.i dont know what happened to them. asmah and fifa cudnt come because its far for asmah and fifa was sick.
nevertheless,we enjoyed our dinner and the best time was when we all laughed like crazy to the guy who was singing.u shud go there and listen to his singing..it was totally out of this world!!hahahhahahhaha...!! we were practically laughing like a bunch of hyenas..! people mite think that we were the ones who are crazy. but it was hilarious..seriously..seriously..seriously..
anyways..i added some photos of us.
later k.

















this is my food..its umm..kuey tiao ginger with
umm..chicken.althou it mite look yummy..
i didnt quite like the taste of ginger..

i asked lia and bob to pose while holding the umm..

parsley maybe..hahaha..wth.

they look cute anyway..

they are mcda,mok,shela,iedot,ayeen and tasya's

hand.

these are iedot,ayeen,tasya and effa.

a good bunch.

this is me with bob..

me,mok and nazrie..btw,mok's real name is

mashitah.sometimes we call her mashy or mok.

love this pic!!

i L.O.V.E everyone in all of these pictures..

miss them badly.. ='(

Voices of Euphoria showcase at PH

Last month (i think..hehe..) i went to Planet Hollywood to watch VE live. its my first time to go to a showcase. i've never been to one. haha.. i have to pay rm40 for the ticket..i had to practically scraped the money from my account..hahhahha..and..not only that..i had to stand up for the whole 3hours! i mean,i knew i was gonna have to stand but for 3 hours??

my feet were hurting and my wedges were not helping..(before we went there,i thot of wearing the wedges because i remembered someone saying that if u wear wedges,ur feet wont get hurt..) and so i thot..why not?
i went with tasya (VE no1 fan) haha.. and we met her cousin,rashdan. he's a good fren of Juno Hustle. tapi takpe la.thats not important..

anyway..althou going for VE showcase mite not be the coolest thing ever but i had a great time.and seeing how cute Lah and Zaf, really made my feet pain go away. (i am honestly exaggerating..)hahahha.

btw,here are some of the pictures.

enjoice!!

*im sorry..

i dont know how to organize the pics and the text.

so i just put them that way.

hehe

i think Lah was looking at me during this moment.

hahaha (berangan)

as you can see..Zaf is soooo cute..
*sigh*

me and tasya. i thot what i was wearing
is cool..NOT!!
hahaha..



see..i told u Zaf is cute..haha!!
damian got his hair cut.

New account *sigh*

Question 1.
What can you guess from the title above?

YES..i have to make a new account for my blog.
NEW ACCOUNT..it was just yesterday that i made the account..
and when i want to sign-in today,they said that the password was wrong.
what the hell..(im sounding more&more like farrhana)
well,there you go..my new account.
check out www.nana-bonana.blogspot.com
i'll write new posts okay.
farrhana..u better comment again aa..!!
hahahhahha.
later.