my passion for blogging has probably deterred since my laptop died. i've no intention what so ever to write again, until now... why? just because. okay okay, there's something thats bothering me and i dont like it and i think its stupid. facebook has managed to destroy (okay, thats a strong word to use) erm, to... cause a ridge between mother and daughter. it was totally unexpected. i called her one day and she sounded annoyed and i was like (wth did i do wrong?). i was distraugt of course. who wouldnt? when ur mom suddenly doesnt want to talk to you, you'd be digging ur brain out thinking what did u do wrong. i managed to ignore thinking that she prolly was annoyed or mad at someone else and threw it on me. then yesterday at work, she called and STILL sounded the same. i was like WTH. it lasted only for 20seconds because she just said, sms me the date of ur graduation. click. that was it. ape nii??? tbb okay. so later that night i texted my brother, kot2 la dia tau why. and he said she's not mad, its just that dia terasa because "u seem friendly with ur frens than her". WHAT?? which part of 'friendly' doesnt she understand? of course im friendly with my FRIENDS. friendly isnt derive from the word mother. and friendly isnt exactly how you should be with ur mother (well, im not). look, maybe im wrong for not being 'friendly' to her as i do with my friends but thats just the way it is. my mother is my family and should stay at being just that. call me cruel or disrespectful, but this is how i am. and pls, at least have the guts to tell it to my face. NOT by treating me like i did something really bad because if i didnt ask my brother, i wouldnt even KNOW why.
i wont say i'm sorry
5 comments:
erkkk...
moms are weird in that way..i don't understand my mom MOST of the time..but i love her just the same..
usher: whaaaattt?? haha
pastelprincess: it's a little bit too much. i cant always be the bad guy u know. give me a break. but no doubt, i do love her.
its because u r her only daughter and she is aging. plus u jauh dari dia. she feels left out. my mom pun mcm tu juga.
so i guess u kena byk ambik hati dia. send her gifts. send her cards. call tiap2 hari. sms.
i know u do that. tapi... well, just go on with your life and b happy babe. u did your part. u are doing nothing wrong. its just that perasaan a mom bile jauh dgn her children mmg cam tu.
:)
yeah..i know.she's miserable sbb both her children kat sini.i feel bad.because i dont know how a mother feels like.
i will lah one day and only then i fhm perasaan dia.
i cant wait to go back.so that we (me and mom)can talk.
thx hana
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