Wednesday, June 11, 2008

i'm not dead, i'm calm

two weeks ago, a friend asked me "takot tak?".i answered yes.in fact, i am very scared.of what? u may ask.of everything thats regarding me going there.i never thot i'd be this terrified, u know.maybe im not ready of what's waiting for me there.im not ready to approach new things in my life.new place, new friends, new challenges..for those who knows me probly know what im talking about.fina and her forever low self-esteem.yeah.thats me.truth to be told, i am never confident with myself.let alone trusting myself to do things that are probly out of reach.the person i am now has changed a little.way better than before but not enough for the future.
then, another friend said "ko ni blum pegi dh demotivate.jgnla mcm tu weih".how can i not?huhu.alangkan kat sini pun aku menggelabah.kat sane?koma tros agaknye.but she, as always, wud never stop giving me encouragement (thank u,F).she said "take advantage.start fresh." thinking of it again..start fresh,huh.ok, that sounds not bad at all.no one wud know about my past.and i'll have the opportunity to become a new person.to change myself.to prove to myself that i can definitely do it.
...ok, aku tak boleh.dem.

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