Cold Turkey

do u realize that everytime u say 'cool' or 'chill' ur actually not anywhere near it? ur just pretending that everything's fine and ur cool with it.that it doesnt bother u much.

its easy to be in Denial.to imagine that ur somewhere else and all the things dont matter to u. even if its the biggest problem that ur going thru.

i dont know about you but for me i find it extremely easy to be in Denial and can be said as a part of me. my best friend. i depended on Denial. with Denail, i can at least pretend as if im okay and almost nothing in this world can bother me. without Denial, i wud Die. and i do not mean literally but yes..i wud Die without it. u may think im Stupid or that im running away from my problem (running-away-doesnt-make-any-sense thingy)..i know. but rite now ur not the one with the problem. u can easily say, 'relax' or 'everything's gonna be ok' etc. but what ur forgetting is that, ur not ME. no f**king way. so dont go on and on telling me that everythings gonna be fine or ur gonna be ok or dont run away from ur problems.. WTF.

* im not attacking anyone here ok.this is just something i came up with at the office since there are NO..i repeat NO work to do AT ALL.its the 2nd week that we dont have anything to do. how can i not LOVE my job?seriously. hahahha.. but honestly, jgn terasa ok. anyway, i do honestly love you all..u know who u are. u've been great to me..supporting me all the way, giving me advises and the most important thing is that you guys make me happy. this is just an emo entry. my unconscious-crazy-mind got to me.harhar.. (totally BS) maybe its because i've been reading all these emo blogs.u shud check them out.they are SERIOUSLY EMO-S.

try:
lidah-lidah.blogspot.com
gadisjahat.blogspot.com
fynnjamal.blogspot.com

they are all EMOS. i dont understand. they have great future ahead of them and their BM is extremely beautiful but they cant seem to embrace the life they're living. i mean, everyone has their own problems, big or small, but we need to get a hold on ourselves rite. have to be strong. not a pessimist. (easier said than done, fina).. hahahaha.. but i've been thru the 'dark ages' in my life too..and so does u. it'll only makes us stronger rite?

-what doesnt kill u only makes u stronger-