Is It Time Yet?

i keep asking myself that question for 4 years..is it time yet for me to built a relationship? am i ready for yet another roller coaster ride with someone? to get to know each other..then build the trust etc..it seems like a long journey and it gets kinda tiring to it all over again, doesnt it?
but actually, i dont mind. its just that i havent met the "rite" person yet.or the "rite" person hasnt meet me yet. *sigh* i dont know.on the first day of raya, my aunty asked me "boyfren mcmane?"...and i was like "huh?boyfren yg mane satu?" because as far as im concerned i dont have any..! i thot maybe she knows something that i dont know..then, my cousins laughed at me saying "waa..yg mane satu...ade ramai la tu"..hahahaha..
they're great.its been a long time since we have fun and make jokes together.
anyways, back to the topic...
...i do feel great being single. its fun, no headaches, no worries and the best thing is i get to spend my money to myself..not for anyone else (family's exception). but at times, i do feel bored, sad (not sad sad) but sad like "aihh...if only i have a boyfren rite now"..that kind of sad.and when i feel vulnerable, i wanted to have someone to share my problems, my pain and my joy...but ya..i dont have one.guy frens are different, they're there for fun times..for 'lepak-ing', have wacky conversation with..
but honestly, i survived and STILL surviving without having anyone by my side.althou 4 years ago i thot i wudnt be able to 'live' without him.i was like "what am i supposed to do now that im single again?" "can i survive without him?" "can i someday face him without having any feeling of resentment, hatred or revenge or even love? " one and a half year later, i go the answer to all my questions. i CAN and i DID. it was the greatest moment when i realized that i no longer have any feelings for him and that i've managed to MOVE on. i should give myself a pat on the back for being able to go through alot of dissappointment, pain and sadness..YUP..! since then, i do feel that i can take care of myself..with a little bit of difficulty.but difficulties are normal rite? problems taught me to be independent and somehow i become braver over the years..well, i manage to solve them with the help of a lot of poeple. especially the people that i just got to know a few moths now. they're great people..each one of them.and i thank you for all ur help, patience, concern, tips etc..thank you very much.
before i conceal this particular entry, i'd like to answer the question that i've been asking myself for years..
NO, its not the time yet.not now at least. so there you go. my ultimate answer. (^_^)

Selamat Hari Raya

hi...!! *wink*
Selamat Hari Raya..!
well..i thot im gonna have loads of fun for this year's raya but unfortunately it was normal.nothing much..and the worst thing was that im no longer eligible for 'duit raya'...!! huaaaaaaaaaaa....so sad. (-_-) in fact, i was the one who gave angpau to them (my family of course) and to Ain.i dont have any money left.seriously.well ya..i have some in the bank..but thats different.the money in the bank shudnt be touched. *sigh*
but at least, i got to see my other family members althou not all..thank god Omar and Anis were there..there are SO CUTE...!! i feel like pinching their cheeks until red..! (^_^)
so..thats about it i guess..

Page 116

my journey started at page 116. .

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* to be continued

continuation..

(^_^) hahaha..actually, journey sounded sooo wrong. what i meant was my shopping spree started after i read the book until page 116 at Kinokuniya. hehe... yup..! today i shopped again at KLCC. i wanted to buy a jeans from Zara and a long blouse also from Zara..but unfortunately, i cudnt find the one that i wanted.i think different store has different stocks..anyway, we went into Roxy to check out the jeans and we both found it affordable..so, i tried them on and i LOVE it.same with my fren..she was the one who chose the jeans.

after we went left Roxy, we went to Isetan and i showed her the sweater that i had eyed on earlier. it was a cool sweater.when i tried it on, it just fits.after like 3 to 4 thoughts...i finally bought it.

so thats it for this month.i cant shop any more..well, not for this month.haha...i barely got some left for my expenses this month..so, i have to be extra careful with my money.Darn..! i've spent like nearly rm600! serve me right! i overspend.so now i'll have to bare the consecuences..

when i barely have enough money for this month, a friend of mine just sms-ed and asked me if i want to go and watch money with the clique. another Darn! i cant.i'll just have to decline. *sigh* too bad for me lah.huhuhuhu...

nevermind...im waiting for this month's salary and i will definitely shop again..shopping malls...u just wait! hahahaha..sounds threatening, doesnt it? okay, then..im pretty beat up from our outing...gonna iron my kebaya and then go straight to sleep. zzzZZzzZZZZzzz..

Keds

she's pretty,huh? but what's prettier are the shoes she's wearing! it's Keds.

ever since im into mary janes..

Keds is my #1 favourite..(althou kat sini takde)

*sigh*
i checked the website and they do not ship to other countries except the USA.

darn..if they ship to Mesia,i'd be ordering loads of them!

anyway..here are a few of their designs..

Cup-Cakes..!!

arent they the cutest cupcakes..?? (^_^)

korg tgk je laa..hahaha.i ordered these for my family.brought them back home..

they were nice..nak order? u'll have to come to cyberjaya to pick it up la.ngee~

16 cupcakes = rm28

cheaper than the wondermilk's.

Guilty Pleasure

u mite say that im a show off..but im not..i just want to share the things that i bought for the past two weeks..thats all.so..here are the stuff that i bought in Kajang and Midvalley.

this is the last mary jane that i bought before we went back.from Momoe

i bought like 4 t-shirts at FOS.i have NEVER bought more than one or two things from FOS.huhu..so,this is what happened when Bulat / Fina goes to shop.

this vest.i LOVE it.i LOVE it.i LOVE it.

this one over here...i dont even know when im gonna where it.aihh..tu la nafsu.haha

i LOVE this one.this is pretty much the first thing i bought with my salary.


cute rite this one.hehe..i love glitters and i like the material.so, i pejam mate je amik this one.


i fell in love with this bag the moment i lay my eyes on it.i was sceptical to buy it at first but my shopping instinct thot its now or never..!it was on sale so why not,rite?

(^_^)

basically, these are the things that i bought.and im not finished!ahhah..i've listed more things to buy rite.so hopefully, im able to buy them.i think i need a new jeans.well..i dont exactly NEED it, i just WANT it.hahahaha.

anyways, enough about my guilty pleasures.im gonna blog about something else.which are CUPCAKES!!

Wish List

Things that i wish to buy:

1. Zara Jeans

2. Zara Blouse

3. Beanie

4. Specs

5. Zara Mary Janes (another one??)

6. Purple Hooded Sweater

7.

8.

9.

10.

all of those things i listed is gonna cost me A LOT. trust me..so i'll have to make WISE decisions..
but the thing is..i CANT..! so HELP!

Confession Of A Shopaholic Wannabe

haa..FINALLY..

i got to fulfill my ultimate desire last Wednesday..i went SHOPPING!and it was rewarding althou we were in a hurry..i felt good (sugar high)...because i got to buy what i want.it has been a long time since i shop..i cudnt even remember the last time i bought something.so..that was my chance to really2 splurge and lemme tell u that im NOT finished yet!!still have few things to buy.. (^_^)

anyway..i spent about rm300 for everything including food for 'berbuka'..we ate at Little Penang..both me and mila ordered the nasi lemak, a cendol for me and coconut for mila.then us, being 'greedy' ordered a set of pie tie which we DID NOT finish..haih membazir.as we stroll around, i managed to buy a cool vest and a tube blouse (if u call it a blouse..).then we went to Zara to look for a sweater that i was eyeing for a long time...sampai2 sane..the sweater is not there! Darn..! i was devastated.hahahaha.Really. im not joking cuz i wanted that sweater.we were quite long at Zara because we were busy asking and trying out the mary janes which are TO DIE for..(im not exaggerating) trust me.they are the CUTEST things ever!u'd go crazy over them.i was having a dilemma of what to buy..i had 3 things in my mind. a jeans, a long blouse (NICE) and also a mary jane.i so cudnt make up my mind and i ended up buying nothing from Zara.only mila who bought something. huh..

then we went to FOS.as i went in i immediately look for some t-shirts..i've been wanting to buy some since i got the job so that was my chance. (^_^) i browsed thru all the t-shirts and i took 3 to try them out.then i got out of the fitting room...i browsed again and i took like 4 tees..and i questioned myself.. "do i really want to buy FOUR?" "am I CRAZY?" "do i have ENOUGH budget?"..things like that...and lastly, mila succeeded in convincing me to buy all FOUR.which i dont regret.. thats a good thing rite? not feeling any regret after u spent rm110 for FOUR t-shirts?? huu~~

after FOS..we went to Momoe..and i got myself ANOTHER mary janes...*sigh* (now i have like 4 mary janes..hehehe)..and i intend to buy MORE..! MORE! muahahahahaha...i am soo into mary janes..

we were tired like hell..so at about 9 something, we decided to stop.we bought some drinks and we went back..phew~ what a day..

so..when are YOU guys going shopping??? i do hope it wud be soon and i really2 hope that u'd enjoy ur outings..

okay..need some ZzzZZzzZ... Later!!