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“Aunty Naa..” she’d call me. And my heart melts a little.

She says the cleverest things.

belated

raya was a blur memory.nothing much happened.the trip to pahang was daunting.the days were boring.to make it worse, the person didnt call.oh well, move on.anyway, i'll write again soon.when i get all my materials ready.

i'm already gone.

conversation

aku : haa
aku : program tu utk org2 tertentu je
aku : sebelum amik program tu
aku : dia ada test ke-mereng-an
aku : utk uji tahap ngeng
SAJ : ko nie memang perlukan pertolongan...
SAJ : haha.. kucing aku kt sebelah ni tgh mimpi sambil terkujat2
aku : hahahaha
SAJ : same la ngeng mcm ko
aku : kelaka kan tgk kucing tido terkujat2
aku : kucing aku pon ada gitu
SAJ : tau xpe..
aku : kdg2 berbunyi langsung
aku : ntah ape la mimpi tu
SAJ : aku teringat zaman skolah..
SAJ : kadang2 tido kt kelas pastu terkujat sebab mimpi
aku : hahahaha
aku : itu sbb kau tido dlm kelas
SAJ : aku ingat kucing ko mimpi dpt tuan bru.. die happy sgt
aku : hahaha
aku : kan
aku : aku pon rasa ye
aku : kesian dia
aku : mesti berimpian nak larikan diri dari aku dh lama
SAJ : tp duit die x cukup lg...
aku : mana nak cukup duit
aku : asik nak makan minum je
aku : kena la tolak duit saku dia
SAJ : tu ah..
SAJ : kucing aku ni pun kaki lantak
SAJ : tak reti nk benti
SAJ : kalau reti nk tolong wat keje umah xpe gakkk
aku : betol!
aku : kucing aku ni
aku : aku soh tutup air bila dh masak
aku : dia buat bodo je
SAJ : tue ah...
SAJ : kn bagus kalau diorg nie tlg2 lipat bju ke..
SAJ : cuci pinggan
aku : yaAllah
aku : aku setuju
aku : baju2 kitorg dh berlambak2 tak lipat2
SAJ : yg diorg tau tdo atas bjuu bru basuh ade le
aku : itu mmg betol wehhhh
aku : aku balik umah tadi tgk kat baju aku ada kesan2 dia
aku : geram aku nyah!
aku : pastu tau nak lari bila aku marah
SAJ : yg best tu die tau bile kite marah
SAJ : pastu wat muke kesian
SAJ : pastu wat2 tdo
aku : buat mata bulat sket kan
aku : konon2 innocent
SAJ : tau xpe...
SAJ: ari tue aku masak bihun sup.. makan atas lantai jekk
SAJ : datang kucing aku nk manje2..
SAJ : skali kaki die terlebih jangkauan sampai tercelup dlm sup aku..
aku : hahahahahahhahahahahahaha
SAJ : siot betul..
SAJ : dh la mase tue aku lapar tahap somalia
aku : alahaii...abes tu kau buat ape kat dia
aku : kau rendam tak dia dlm baldi
aku : tak pon ikat dia kat pokok
SAJ : xde maknenye...
SAJ : die ttau die salah.. cpt2 blah..
SAJ : aku rase kucing nie sebenarnye paham tau kite cakap..
SAJ : tp wat2 x paham takut kene wat keje
aku : kan
aku : aku pon rasa gitu lah
aku : pulak tu, kucing aku manja dgn mak aku
aku : mesti la mak aku backing dia
aku : balik2 aku yg kena
SAJ : hidup kite nie hopeless sgt ke??? smpi ngan kucing pun nk cri pasal???
aku : menurut firasat aku
aku : kita mmg hopeless
aku : hahahahahahaha
SAJ : aku setuju..
SAJ : weh...
SAJ : walaupun ko x keje..
SAJ : tp aku nie keje esok ye..
aku : hahaha
aku : ye ye
aku : betol
SAJ : kepale pun dh agak weng dhh ni
aku : silalah tido
SAJ : tue ah...
SAJ :nanti kite sambong lah ye perbincangan kite ni..
aku : jap, aku rasa conversation kita ni menarik gila...jadi aku nak minta permission kau utk letak conversation ni kat blog aku
aku : boleh?
SAJ : letak ler...
SAJ : nampak sangat ko nie memang x waras
aku : hahahhahaha
aku : alah
aku : kau pon sama
aku : ok ok..kau pegilah tido
SAJ : jgn bgtau kucing ko.. nanti die mintak royalti
aku : yaaa
aku : naseb kau ingtkan aku
aku : terima kaseh


one of the best conversations i've ever had.thanks SAJ.

Al-Fatihah

everything happened so fast.
2 weeks ago she was all smiley but now she's gone.
my tok meng passed away this morning at 9am.
on friday if im not mistaken, dad told us tok's not feeling well.
so we went to her house.she could no longer sit.no longer talking like before.
but she recognized me when they asked who am i.
she answered, 'syafina' and gave me her lovely smile.
her loveliest smile.
then on saturday dad got a call and was told that she's getting worse.
we went again and upon seeing her, my heart fell.
she was breathing hard.eyes closed.cold feet.
almost lifeless.
we stayed until 12.30am.
after sahur, i went back to sleep and was awaken at about 9am.
she was gone.
we were among the first to come.
recited the yasin.watched tok's closest nieces, nephews, grandchildren shedding tears.
i didnt kiss her for the last time.
dont ask, because i dont know why.
went along to the cemetary, went back home and slept.

Tok Meng, thou shall be missed.

Whatta..

uh-oh,WE'RE IN THE SAME COUNTRY
and still with the SAME PROBLEM

i want out!


aduh..

If

"If all else perished, and he remained, I should still continue to be; and if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger." (Catherine Earnshaw)

the good

today was both good and bad. but i think the good overshadowed the bad.my mom wanted to eat outside for iftar since forever so we finally went out.we had a problem choosing which restaurant to go to.we were walking around jusco tebrau and then i saw the Manhattan Fish Market.so i decided to try.i made a mistake ordering the um, what do they call it..ramadhan promo or something.or was it puasa promo.eh, sorry.cant remember.but it's somewhere in between.lol.anyhoo, below's the picture of my food.and the other one is mom's.she had something something salmon.and she liked it.

i wont suggest anyone to order this.the rice didnt taste so good.
and the fish was okay lah.
don't be fooled with the mushroom soup and
mango pudding that they throw in with the promotion!

if u like salmon then go ahead with this one.
mom said the fish is fresh.
and i think it was worth it.
the price is between rm30-rm40.

i'm coming!

so excited!

*joget joget*


hihi

*updates*

okay, i may not go after all. :(

you're my disco

everyone,

meet my grand aunt, Tok Meng

i used to go to her house when i was growing up.she taught me to read the Qur'an (i didnt khatam tho :p), yelled when i did something naughty, took care of me when parents were away and loves me just the way i am.we went to visit her last on sunday and she there was looking so frail.time does fly.i didnt remember her being this fragile.but she's still a good sport and so cute.her hair was everywhere and when i was tying her hair, she said, 'adik, kuat sikit.takpe tak sakit.rambut pun dh takde'. i just had to laugh. 'betol ni tak sakit, tok?' i asked. 'betol.ha, tarik kuar sikit', she answered.

i am going to miss her alot.hmm..maybe i should take her out sometimes.

love you!

hey

when life gets you down, do you know what you gotta do?


just keep swimming