Happy Feet

i am smiling.
like a crazy girl.
at least i am happy.for now.
thank you.
for making me smile.
for now.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Talk Of The Town

i hate being talked about. being the center subject in the family makes me hurl. the thing is, if its already happening and real, i dont mind. but talking about the thing thats not even confirmed yet is just..sick. what if i didnt get it? then, my family and especially me will definitely be ashamed.
yes, we will. she always likes to exaggerate. i thought it wud be different this time.I'm wrong. stupid me. *sigh* but since its all said and done, i'll just leave it to the hands of the powerful ones. pray for me okay, guys. amin.

I Dont Like You

Leave me Alone.
as simple as that.
perlu ke ko nak meroyan?minum2?
bodoh.
aku pompuan aa, bongok.
kau merimaskan.
please go away!

Ai-Screaaaaaaaaammmmm!!

CARLITTOOOOOOOOOOOOOO....!!!!
itulah jeritan yg kedengaran di corong2 telinga kami.
aku terkejut lantas melihat ke arah cik zatie.
dia sedang kalut menyelamatkan diri dari Carlitto
yg aku sendiri tak faham kenape.
HAHAHAHA.
dia takkan langgar kete Emey la, Zatie.

HAHA.

Like A Knife

Why would I want to,
Lie like you,
Thieve like you,
Hurt like you,
Deceive like you,
Connive like you,
Cheat like you,
Its not that hard to be like you,
But then again why would I want to?

aku emo.
mulut ko sok sek sok sek.
macam Soyal.
can you NOT talk about ME anymore.
aku penat.
bye.

Mari Makan Cake

someone or 2-3 someones ate my sengkelat cake.
one word: rude

What The Hell

i was mis-under-stood.
and i hate that.
it was just an innocent act (that i purposely DID not intend to do)
and it came out not as i expected to.
why me?
why not yourself?
look at you.
you're too analytic (Psycho-analyst).
everything has to be analyzed.
hey, get a life!

How I Wish..

i wish:

**that i cud get to know more**
**that i am the person to be there**
**to understand why**
**to be the comfort zone**
**to be more acceptable & accepting**
**the person could depend on me**

Lastly, i frankly wish:
**that i wont care. at all**

Hurrah!

Alhamdulillah...finally, it is done.i did went thru a lot to make this happen.i admit that i was too lazy to think and too scared to make a decision.but in the end, i've made my decision and i made my lazy ass move (haha).

i went to 15 to get the desired paper, i took a leave and i went to the other side to beg for mercy (muke tebal.terpaksa), i pleaded 2 superstars to help with stuff, i had to create a genius "hell" (which practically made me crazy. but thanx alot to those who helped.i appreciate it very much).these may not sound a lot and sane but i went thru some hell to get the them done.

i am partly relieved. another part of me is..well...freaking out.why?i dont know.wait.i think i do know.but for now, they're for me to keep and for everyone else to not know.opss..maybe three or five (or six/seven!) of u know but lets just keep it to ourselves for now, ok? thank you.

it wont end if i keep on rambling about this entry.so, i'll just stop here for now.

**my deepest gratitude to ShyHair and Pisang for helping me with the dreaded "hell". sankyu very much.

Sorry for Being Straight? NOT..!

The Definition of:

Homosexual

adjective
1. sexually attracted to members of your own sex

noun
1. someone who practices homosexuality; having a sexual attraction to persons of the same sex

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its weird considering that i, of all people is talking about this subject. never crossed my mind to post something like this but things happened and i do feel like sharing. so, here it goes.

to make it short, i met a girl.yep.a girl, same age, quite cute and very much a girl lah.we met by coincident thru my cousin.so, we hung out together (along with her other homo frens) and that actually made me feel tiny weeny worried and uncomfortable. the fact that im straight and they are not made me curious too.a lot of questions flooded into my head.

what is it like being with the same sex? is it better? how? why? i went on and on questioning myself and i still cudnt get the answers that i was looking for.althou they were right in front of me.i was trying to figure out how things work when i was "approached" by one of them.
*GILE KE??!! *

without me realizing it, one of them was attracted to me.what did i do? as far as i can remember, i didnt do anything.i was quite, didnt say much and yet i was able to attract a GIRL? Come On! Saiko la that girl.anyway, she tried hard to pursue me (pursue??GROSS!) calling and texting every single day.asked me out for dinner.kept on asking if She has a chance with me. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH HER??!! cudnt she get it that im Straight. i like men.im into men.i love men.am i asking to much that i got a girl instead? (i told her off so many times and she just didnt give up.Clap Clap for being so Persistent?)

i was utterly annoyed and i cudnt take it.i was rude to her, said harsh things, ignored her calls and sms..and yet, she kept on doing so for like a month or so.after endless of calls and stuff, she finally stopped.Thank God.i was able to live normally again.i longed for peace and i got it.hahahha.

in the end, i still didnt get how things work with homosexuality. its interesting if ur curious but its scary if it happens to u. trust me. i know.

what do u say, peeps??